Hi yall,

I havent posted for a while, but some things have happened that i need some insight on.

Ive had these childhood memories that i had a feel to them that i couldnt understand.

Thru my course of trying to understand myself better, I found these areas of memory, that i couldnt see, but i could "feel".

I dont know how it works for other people, but all my memories have an emotional signature. Not a definitive emotion, but sort of a mix of all the things i felt at the time.

The memories had this "numb" feeling. I couldnt figure out why.

The other day I was endulging in some cannabis when, for a split second, I felt the feeling again.

Then I realized what it was. It was the feeling of an astral projection. The memories are my memories of my astral travels when i was little.

So, since then, ive been trying to pull it back. The more I concertrate, the more i get the feeling that its vital that i understand the nature of this. My frist memories of the world around me arent visual, they are astral.

I think something happened, something that terrified me and i stopped projecting.

Last night, again enjoying some herb, I had the strangest experience. I felt an astral projection while laying down, but instead of going astral, i could still feel myself in my body. After a while, i began to see a room behind my eyelids. kinda like the way you see ur room thru ur eyelids when you are about to project. But this wasnt my room.


Does anyone have any recommendations, advice, or insight? I have been trying to astrall project for a long time. I find all the parts easy to do, except the exit. I think im holding myself back for the same reason that i stopped projecting.

--ICWiz