Nursing babies

[susan]

I'm struggling just now with the limits I'm putting on myself.
It showed in my dream last night.

Dream.

I'm walking with a small crowd in a school corridor but we are naked. The classroom doors are shut and we are looking for the toilets. We should be in class. When we find the toilets someone else is there naked and is being led back out to the corridor very gently by a lady.

The toilets to me mean cleansing/ eliminating . The feeling that I should be learning all I can but that I feel a little lost.

Am I putting too many unnecessary restrictions on myself? I did a lot of housework through the day. HB didn't do anything. Evening time and He has the wine, He has the steak. What am I getting out of this?
I've lost weight...Great. The experiences I'm having are nothing different to when I was drinking and eating anything I wanted.Okay, the clairaudience has developed but would that have come about in time anyway? My dreams are comforting. I've definately noticed the difference in my dreams but would this have happened anyway?
Today I've felt a little dizzy, light headed. Not good when driving.Also my forehead area feels a little heavy. I haven't gone hungry. Drinking lots of water. Its true what they say... It stops you feeling hungry. I'm eating enough for energy. I haven't felt weak. Just a little light headed sometimes.
I've got a feeling I've been here before and had the same thoughts but I cannt be bothered to check back in journal.
I'm not trying to be a saint. I only want to do what I believe at the time is where I'm being directed.
What seems right. I'm just not sure I can give up such pleasures.
I'll update if I give in. It'll be the fish.

[IA56]

I'm struggling just now with the limits I'm putting on myself.
It showed in my dream last night.

Dream.

I'm walking with a small crowd in a school corridor but we are naked. The classroom doors are shut and we are looking for the toilets. We should be in class. When we find the toilets someone else is there naked and is being led back out to the corridor very gently by a lady.

The toilets to me mean cleansing/ eliminating . The feeling that I should be learning all I can but that I feel a little lost.

Am I putting too many unnecessary restrictions on myself? I did a lot of housework through the day. HB didn't do anything. Evening time and He has the wine, He has the steak. What am I getting out of this?
I've lost weight...Great. The experiences I'm having are nothing different to when I was drinking and eating anything I wanted.Okay, the clairaudience has developed but would that have come about in time anyway? My dreams are comforting. I've definately noticed the difference in my dreams but would this have happened anyway?
Today I've felt a little dizzy, light headed. Not good when driving.Also my forehead area feels a little heavy. I haven't gone hungry. Drinking lots of water. Its true what they say... It stops you feeling hungry. I'm eating enough for energy. I haven't felt weak. Just a little light headed sometimes.
I've got a feeling I've been here before and had the same thoughts but I cannt be bothered to check back in journal.
I'm not trying to be a saint. I only want to do what I believe at the time is where I'm being directed.
What seems right. I'm just not sure I can give up such pleasures.
I'll update if I give in. It'll be the fish.

Hi Susan,

The first thing what hits me when reading what you wrote...is....envy....and petty.....
Nakedness in my dreams stands for openness and nothing to hide...honesty....
It is good to time to time to ask em self...if what I am doing is good for me...and if not dare to make new things happen in own life....dare to be open for changes.

Love
ia

[IA56]

Hi Susan,

The first thing what hits me when reading what you wrote...is....envy....and petty.....
Nakedness in my dreams stands for openness and nothing to hide...honesty....
It is good to time to time to ask em self...if what I am doing is good for me...and if not dare to make new things happen in own life....dare to be open for changes.

Love
ia

Hi Susan,

Did I hurt you with what I wrote??
It was not my intention, what I tried to point out was, that what is on our minds we dream about...like for me I most think about to try to understand all happening in my life, so what I dream about is sequences from my real life happenings, in dreams they are lifted up symbolically new way´s to see things so I can solve and release negativity so I can start to live more positively and draw that into my life.
Love you!

Love
ia

[susan]

No no IA you didn't cause any hurt at all. I was a bit pushed for time and needed time to think about this one.
Absolutly right about Envy and Pity. I was envious of HB that night because I have withdrawn pleasures from my life and he still has them. I know for a fact that wine would send me dizzy now. When I cook meat for him from what used to smell gorgeous now smells like rotted meat for the bin. ( in fact I left a steak out for him last night for coming home from work and was concerned incase it was off and he ended with food poisoning but he seems fine .) Now there's the fish.

Last year or the year before I had a lovely short dream almost like a child's cartoon where it was suggesting I should be shown what the fishermen are doing to the fish our friends out to sea. It also had me putting on realy heavy red lipstick.( ingredients to lipstick) .I realised immediatly what the meaning here was and laughed it off as NO WAY! Not ready to give up fish.

The time I wrote on my I pad with my eyes closed.....veg vegan change go now ....( or something like that) Absolutly no way am I going vegan. How many times have I written NO WAY! And then months later it starts up again till I say OKAY!

I know without doubt the way I am being gently directed but I am battling with myself. There are those that argue the moral side to this , the killing , then there is the fact that mystical experiences are experienced also by those who drink ,take drugs and are not vegetarian.

So this is my battle with myself. I know I must go with my guidance and gut feeling but the transition isn't easy. I feel a little embarrassed when saying I've given up fish now. What a hypocrite having eaten this all my life.
Maybe this was the chariots and horses symbolism...strength, power, battle, don't know.
Do you have any thoughts on horses and chariots in an arena IA?

[IA56]

No no IA you didn't cause any hurt at all. I was a bit pushed for time and needed time to think about this one.
Absolutly right about Envy and Pity. I was envious of HB that night because I have withdrawn pleasures from my life and he still has them. I know for a fact that wine would send me dizzy now. When I cook meat for him from what used to smell gorgeous now smells like rotted meat for the bin. ( in fact I left a steak out for him last night for coming home from work and was concerned incase it was off and he ended with food poisoning but he seems fine .) Now there's the fish.

Last year or the year before I had a lovely short dream almost like a child's cartoon where it was suggesting I should be shown what the fishermen are doing to the fish our friends out to sea. It also had me putting on realy heavy red lipstick.( ingredients to lipstick) .I realised immediatly what the meaning here was and laughed it off as NO WAY! Not ready to give up fish.

The time I wrote on my I pad with my eyes closed.....veg vegan change go now ....( or something like that) Absolutly no way am I going vegan. How many times have I written NO WAY! And then months later it starts up again till I say OKAY!

I know without doubt the way I am being gently directed but I am battling with myself. There are those that argue the moral side to this , the killing , then there is the fact that mystical experiences are experienced also by those who drink ,take drugs and are not vegetarian.

So this is my battle with myself. I know I must go with my guidance and gut feeling but the transition isn't easy. I feel a little embarrassed when saying I've given up fish now. What a hypocrite having eaten this all my life.
Maybe this was the chariots and horses symbolism...strength, power, battle, don't know.
Do you have any thoughts on horses and chariots in an arena IA?

Hi Susan,
Thank´s for telling me and to your question about horses and chariots does give me a feeling of...show off....

I can tell you something about my life...I have gone through just as you...food taken away by giving me a feeling of disgust against things...and I did also stop eating one thing after another and I ended up to have a life threatening deficiency disease....the lesson for me was...to learn to know my body...what it needs to thrive and be the best....to host me so I can do what I came here to do....learn and develop.

So I can not be vegan because my body needs real fish and chicken meat...my body can not process and survive otherwise.

I was also shown that it is real energy and it is why these animals do not have the consciousness yet developed as in us....I was shown also that I have bean eaten several times before I was developed enough my consciousness to inhabit a human body.

So how true this is for you I do not know...but it is very true to me.

Love
ia

[susan]

I need to put an interpretation to the last conscious projection to the arena and the horse and chariot. I need to take notice.in the past they all seem to have beeen important lessons to do with my physical life .
Although interpretation of dreams and symbolism is very unique to the individual I wasn't sure although I had a hunch, so I've done some googling and many come up with the same theme .

Firstly,

Chariot....what was it used for?

Eastern Bible Dictionary. A vehicle generally used for war like purposes.( these were racing)

Wikopedia. Chariots were used in military as transport or mobile archery platform for hunting or racing. Fast way to travel.Horse chariots were used for ancient warfare, games ,races.

How do some interpret horse and chariot?

www.learntarot.com. A military image is appropriate for chariot, or card stands for strengths associated with combat, discipline ,grit, determination and assertiveness.

biddytarot.com. The chariot represents conquest, victory and overcoming opposition through your confidence and control.......you will be successful at pursuing your goals as long as you maintain focus, determination and confidence in your abilities.

I remember the horse was so strong and powerful and this was a race.

I realy feel that because this was experienced just after my decision about the fish that this is my battle within me to overcome the doubt and as it says above....' Maintain focus, determination and confidence.

IA, I don't find any interpretation suggesting 'show off'.This has never been my intention. I take my contact and guidance very seriously ( with humour also) and try to use this journal as open and honest as I can to help me understand. If I start to leave things out incase some may think this then it's not helping me.
I hear what your saying about the diet and I will monitor my health but I realy cannt see why spirit/ sub conscious / whatever/ would push me into giving up these when I was reluctant in the first instance just to show me that I need them by causing me to develop bad health.
I still remember the most beautiful colours like a peacocks feathers placed where a chickens heart would be. Emphasising that even chickens have souls.

Thank you for being honest IA because you have caused me to do a lot of thinking and recalling the times I have been directed in a beautiful gentle way but at the time I was obstinate.

[IA56]

I need to put an interpretation to the last experience of the arena and the horse and chariot. This was too important for me, I need to take notice.
Although interpretation of dreams and symbolism is very unique to the individual I wasn't sure although I had a hunch, so I've done some googling and many come up with the same theme .

Firstly,

Chariot....what was it used for?

Eastern Bible Dictionary. A vehicle generally used for war like purposes.( these were racing)

Wikopedia. Chariots were used in military as transport or mobile archery platform for hunting or racing. Fast way to travel.Horse chariots were used for ancient warfare, games ,races.

How do some interpret horse and chariot?

www.learntarot.com. A military image is appropriate for chariot, or card stands for strengths associated with combat, discipline ,grit, determination and assertiveness.

biddytarot.com. The chariot represents conquest, victory and overcoming opposition through your confidence and control.......you will be successful at pursuing your goals as long as you maintain focus, determination and confidence in your abilities.

I remember the horse was so strong and powerful and this was a race.

I realy feel that because this was experienced just after my decision about the fish that this is my battle within me to overcome the doubt and as it says above....' Maintain focus, determination and confidence.

IA, I don't find any interpretation suggesting 'show off'.This has never been my intention. I take my contact and guidance very seriously ( with humour also) and try to use this journal as open and honest as I can to help me understand. If I start to leave things out incase some may think this then it's not helping me.
I hear what your saying about the diet and I will monitor my health but I realy cannt see why spirit/ sub conscious / whatever/ would push me into giving up these when I was reluctant in the first instance just to show me that I need them by causing me to develop bad health.
I still remember the most beautiful colours like a peacocks feathers placed where a chickens heart would be. Emphasising that even chickens have souls.

Thank you for being honest IA because you have caused me to do a lot of thinking and recalling the times I have been directed in a beautiful gentle way but at the time I was obstinate.

Hi Susan,

How was the chariot...you said the horse was strong and powerful....how was the chariot looking??

Love
ia

[susan]

It had pink fluffy wheels with bunny rabbit ears.


( just kidding, couldn't resist )
Just as portrayed in pictures, for one or maybe two people but to be honest I was more concerned about this powerful horse about to go through me. It's true what they say about detail when perceiving in these scenarios. I could see the strong muscles more than you would find in physical horses.

[IA56]

It had pink fluffy wheels with bunny rabbit ears.


( just kidding, couldn't resist )
Just as portrayed in pictures, for one or maybe two people but to be honest I was more concerned about this powerful horse about to go through me. It's true what they say about detail when perceiving in these scenarios. I could see the strong muscles more than you would find in physical horses.

Haha.....

Yes, I understand...like a show off...so strong and beautiful...I think the word...show off...does give wrong impression what I am trying to say....but the horse is your essence...the eternal essence...and the chariot did come to mind as your flesh body....When I did have my chariot and horse dream or vision...I was the horse and I did make the chariot to tumble over and fall into a ditch....because I did not want to participate in the "race" for money..as much is here on earth....I knew also that my flesh body does not be as strong as my essence...as it is not....so again Susan I lack to break through with what I want to say....lack of words with right essence ...sorry.

Love
ia

[susan]

No problem IA.
I'm just pleased you didn't mean it the way I thought you meant.
You are clever enough to be able to speak and write more than 1 language which is more than me and from time to time there may be a little misunderstanding. Do you remember the fun with the SNAILS a while back? No need for apology. Forgotten.


Yesterday morning 2 dreams from the same sleep cycle. I was in a lovely happy mood when I woke up and this stayed with me all day .

1) I'm with friends inside a cave. I don't think I know all of them. Ahead is the exit ( or entrance) to the cave and I can see a load of people swimming in water. I'm invited to go outside and swim with them and do. What I notice is that this is a long river with loads of cave entrances all leading onto the same river with other people swimming but just outside the entrance to their own cave.

2) I'm inside looking outside a window with someone. They are pointing to far in the distance where there are many trees. This is like the start of a forest. There is frost on the ground.
This person points to a dark bear standing upright over in the distance amongst the trees.We feel lucky to see this . It is rare.
But behind him there is fog and I am excited because hiding in the fog I can see more bears standing upright.I count them and there are 7 . In the dream I feel lucky to have seen them.

3) someone opens a door and I watch a female enter.( I'm watching the characters here) someone shows her a music centre on the shelf and says they hope she enjoys the soft music for her to listen to. I notice she has shades over her eyes. They aren't sunglasses but just two dark lenses covering her eyes but they are tilted so I look underneath the shades and see that her eyes are wide open.


This morning dream, well just short scene upon wakening.
I'm watching again.
A female is sitting on a chair and she is given a hand mirror to hold. This Is like an antique with elaborate coloured detail painted on it. She is told to study this carefully.