Nursing babies

[CFTraveler]

Just a quick thought here but this is two evenings in a row (after the tiredness) that I have been willing to raise energy but something has stopped me

I'm curious as to what.

[susan]

Yesterday woke up to a telephone ringing in my head then saw my face on the screen of a mobile phone as if I was looking at myself.
This was just black and white and me as I probably looked .
This morning woke up to a swan take form in the third eye ( black and white again) , then a seal formed behind it and was moving as they do ,then a crab appeared,sideways walking towards me, then a duck walked towards me.
They were all walking towards me in their own fashion then disappeared.
Don't know if the fact that they are water creatures means anything.
Music on eye phone still not working.

[susan]

My bath mat has an aura. Saw it this morning.
Very very tired this am when getting up due to heavy workload.( no energy raising for a while, too busy)
Sat on the loo looking down at white floor tiles feeling very sorry for myself . My eyes just seemed to be fixed to the floor but my brain was elsewhere .I saw a wide pale green colour take shape around the dark red bath mat that was under the sink in the periphery of my vision. Thinking this must be a shadow from the sink I moved it away from the sink and again same colour but thin line formed round it then got wider ,about 9 inches. Up to this stage I had thought that only plants and living creatures had auras till googling this pm.
So ,learnt something new today but what I'm wondering is how is the colour determined?
Is the aura colour determined by the Colour of the mat, the shape of the mat, or the material of the mat?
Anyone passing by with the answer I would appreciate insight.

[susan]

Okay, on holiday now, exhaustion gone, found out simply on Internet that colour red has green aura. So tired state helps me see auras.Energy surges up the body felt again during meditation.been a while since this was felt.

[susan]

I want to record an experience I had we'll before starting this journal.
Until now I wasn't sure " Who" I had had contact with one night whilst sleeping but I knew it was a special moment.
This fits into one of my "Magical Experiences" .
Background to the event------ Was in a very confused and emotional state due to events concerning spiritual matters. Having been drawn a photograph of " my guide" whom I've spoken of before. Within hours of having that photograph I was being drawn to it over and over again. Just staring at it as if it had some kind of magnetic power( but I had no memory of the person)
Within days I was sitting on the edge of the bed looking at the photograph asking questions.Strong energy sensations would travel up my body and the feeling of intense love would fill me. The drawing had both male and female characteristics.
This continued for a long time( since then this journey started with a lot of humour around. I used to have a lot of that) I feel this person has the same sense of humour as me . I would hear words that sometimes seemed to be a bit dated ( not used these days)
I had been told that we had shared lives together. Were from the same soul group. By the artist and a while later from this person.

Now on to the experience,
One night whilst sleeping I recalled a beautiful gentle figure approach me from behind and hold me by the shoulders. It-He-She, whispered gently in my ear words of re-assurance and I felt such love coming from It. Personal words were spoken which took me by surprise and I felt a little embarrassed that these were known by other , not just me.( bit like invasion of privacy)
I was being slowly turned around as it spoke. I could vaguely see shimmering translucent outline of a person but no obvious dress or trousers. The love emanating from this person left me feeling so protected and loved.It turned me round staying behind me the hole time and told me now to go to sleep and I was gently lowered and let go of and I remember slowly bouncing like jelly onto something soft. Slept....woke up.
Who was this?
It knew my private thoughts, it loved me so much and it came to me when needed.
I can understand why people with strong beliefs could think this was an " angel" and in fact this had been an option to consider but the problem here is that I have seen this type of shimmering being before. Once when phasing , when colours were like rainbow and people were slowly moving around. Another when taken to meet with a young boy whom I immediately loved from the bottom of my heart.
It could have been this guide. Strong possibility but the words were spoken as a loving parent would speak to an adored young child.
I think it more likely that this was my higher self coming forward when needed.
In this physical life it is considered natural for a parent to look after its young. After a while it goes to school and others with special skills will take over the teaching but the parent is there in the background for emotional issues and cries of help.
I think the same may apply in the spirit world
However, getting back to the title HIGHER SELF.
Reading " Robert Munroe" again he talks of future selfs coming back to help.Does it depend on how old the soul is as to how many future selves we have? How many times we have decided to return to physical?
If I am made up of what I have learnt up to now including all previous lives, these future selves/ higher selves must have the same plus their own experience to add to ,therefore it would make sense that they also have a higher self looking over them.
Think I'm getting confused now,but just to add confusion to the pot,,,,
People whom we may believe to be guides helping us on our journey have themselves passed through the lessons and many lives on the physical plane therefore have been many different people with different personalities. We know they can present themselves in any form( even just for a joke) This is well documented.
So my thought is not can they but do they change to adapt to what is required from them at the time ?
Could my guide show love and compassion when needed , laughter and humour when needed, gentleness, seriousness?
My guide is so like me .
If we are from the same soul group and have shared many lives I suppose we came from( the same melting pot)
I don't know if my guide and higher self are the same ( I don' think so ) but the love I felt from whom I believed to be my higher self is all the love anyone would need on the other side.
I can understand why gender has no relevance on the other side.
Time for a glass of wine.

[susan]

Checked my paper journal and found similar thoughts just after my last holiday. Feeling so distant from the other side.Last time it took 2-3 weeks or maybe more of energy raising to have really memorable contact.
However this morning just at the point of wakening I felt the energy rush up my body again. Could this be me re-entering my physical?I think so .
I remember being on a small rowing boat with someone and the sea is so calm,lovely sky ( not the rainbow colours). I see 2 boats in the distance then she( the other person) tells me to take a good look around.I do and am surprised to see so many boats of different shapes and sizes and colours , some I've never seen the shape of before). All so close to shore but just standing still in the calm sea forming an arch,semi-circle.this was very vivid but certainly not one of my memorable experiences.
Just at the point of wakening I thought I heard "we'll have to give you a new goal " ( have been given a goal of "To Pray" a while back.) ohhhh that reminds me , a few days ago woke up to ," Search the land and Sea and put a shout out for God"
Now I feel silly writing this because I have never used the term Shout Out. It's just not my vocabulary.

[susan]

Another brow centre strobe this am. Woke up about midnight to an explosion like two live wires touching and sparks. Immediately sat up in bed and looked out the window( which was open) and heard footsteps . First thought was someone had exploded something outside the house but all was calm. For the last couple of days now my brow has felt tight, not throbbing nor painful just I suppose as if I can feel it.
Exhaustion gone. Loads of energy today.Still working out the water creatures but what I did notice in my paper journal is that the " search the land and sea and put a shout out for God" was recorded within a couple of days of the water creatures. This world is made up of water and earth . I suppose I feel God is thought to permeate everything therefore we should feel love towards everything.
Well that said I still have mouse traps down in the garage. I'm no angel but I am off to hug the bath mat.

[susan]

Using this little bit of space to put a thought to myself after reading kundalini posts.
Why are so many people in such a hurry to raise Kundalini. We are here!! We can learn!! Which hopefully will raise our knowledge and understanding and take it to a new level and with extra input from ourselves raise our awareness even higher, but I get the feeling some people see it as a game ie step 1 2. 3. without the learning to live and give and suffer and feel and hope and love and nurture. Why do people want it? to escape from physical existence and go back quicker? To give themselves an easier ride here? It doesn't seem to do so for those that have raised it. If the word Kundalini could be banished maybe people would just aim to connect with spirit or higher self and take advice as pupils do in school. ( your leaving certificate doesn't come any sooner) . Off my soap box now. As I said just using this space to air off what I'm thinking. Apologies if anyone reading this is offended.

[GMAN12]

Also removing the word ascension and higher planes would do even more justice. Otherwise, I think raising kundalini gets you nowhere faster than anything else. It gets you these abilities which people will cash up on, better energy flow, and higher awareness and connects you with your higher self. I found out myself that the escape from physical existence would make it harder to accomplish a goal. It is much harder in the spirit world to do that as we would already be in a place where we know we are safe, sound, away from illness, sadness, and pretty much colorings. I feel you made a good point and had me thinking twice, though I really would like to raise kundalini a couple of times because as RB said, it isn't raise one and done. I admit, I did want to leave existence now, but it is my mind telling me to leave. I thank you for writing about that here susan.

[susan]

After posting I worried you might take this personal Germain 12 . This wasn't and I love reading your posts . keep up the enthusiasm
As well as the school work.