Nursing babies

[susan]

‘1718 Was Humanities Downfall’

This wasn’t a voice but one of those interrupting thoughts as I tried to figure out in my mind why I’m having so much difficulty finding inner peace.

Visualisation exercises from Franz Bardon’s book not going well. I try the clock ticking, then after 15 seconds I change it to a brook with the noise included, 15 seconds later I change to something else.
My mind is dwelling on things that cause me to then feel guilty that I’m unable or UNWILLING to detach myself from negative thoughts. I‘m struggling just now but I suppose I just have to try harder.
Seeing through the media reporting on tv and how destructive and manipulative they are. My mind is all over the place and I feel guilty. I want to detach but struggling.
So these were my thoughts when in a moments silence I was interrupted by the words, ...1718 Was Humanities Downfall.

So... As things worth taking note of can come in riddles I googled the exact words as they came.
The first page had many options but only one website contained the 1718 date. All the rest were crossed out as meaning the 1718 was missing.
This link took me to a page in a book called.

Reclaiming The Human Sciences and Humanities Through African..........

The paragraph containing the date read as ,

.....“ the 18th Century chemist Herman Boerhaave heated mercury from November 1718 to January 1734 to a temperature above 100 degrees Fahrenheit in the hope to distill gold . he was unsuccessful and gave up.“

The author suggested that negative results should not always be seen as failure but it may just be that enough time has not been given for the results hoped for. He wrote of peoples discoveries and at what stage people gave up or persevered and were successful.

This process of course is known as ALCHEMY.

In metaphysical understanding of the term ALCHEMY it can be seen as the inner process of transformation.
So from this I will take an understanding that this process takes time and effort and determination.

[Antares]

In metaphysical understanding of the term ALCHEMY it can be seen as the inner process of transformation.
So from this I will take an understanding that this process takes time and effort and determination.

The best way is to increase your energy resources from natural environment. If you don't live in countries like Australia, having a "sun-rays bath" really increases your energy and thus abilities to deal with negative influence, from within or from without - doesn't matter.

[susan]

Hi Antares, Since retiring in the last couple of years we spend 9 months out of 12 in hot sunshine, so I get plenty of this but I completely agree with you about natural environments. I’m energised when in the garden or greenhouse .It’s another world I just wish I could be part of, it makes me so happy.
Back to sunshine in 10 days so will be getting away from all the tv and I’ll try your suggestion of soaking up the sun’s energy.

[susan]

Well I now have plenty of sunshine and the canaries are singing beautifully but this morning I woke up frightened and I don’t know why. It’s 2pm and still with me. All I could remember from the last dream before wakening up was about money but I understand this and know this isn’t a reason to be concerned.
I don’t think its the male dominant presence here or the strong religious views I’m surrounded by as everyone I meet is lovely and polite and generous.
I only have BBC World News for tv so maybe a small reason is this but I have a strong feeling it may be the book I’m reading.

THE KEY. By Whitley Strieber..

I’m only up to page 137 but I feel uncomfortable with this as if it’s really challenging my way of thinking.

However on to a lighter note .
For the last few days prior to this I was really pleased after downloading a Dalai Lama App which has some wonderful quotes to just click on . These are so good to fill the mind with. Also as soon as I see something that would have generated a bad thought IÂ’ve been practicing a vacant mind. I go completely blank for a few seconds and move on. This really has been very effective to eliminate bad thoughts.

But today its not the thoughts a problem but the way I’m feeling.

I’m back to edit.
There is always the slightest chance that this feeling is related to something buried inside me that I’m not consciously aware of. Could it possibly be related to a subconscious fear, even a past life I have to work through?
That could explain why I married my husband 43 years ago after just being with him for 4 days and a short separation to go back to the uk . Within 6 months we were married, and still are.
He comes from where we are now in North Africa, IÂ’ve said before that it was me who made this move happen but wasnÂ’t sure why.IÂ’ve known for a while that I had to do this.

Maybe just my imagination and thinking too hard but wanted to put this in.

[susan]

An old classic from the Theosophy Society by Ed Abdill. Such a good description of the process of awakening our inner self.
I could listen to this man all day.

https://www.google.co.uk/url?sa=t&rc..._bxXUTvUBQLaFx

[susan]

“The Personality Retires.”

What a nice way to put it. I want to keep this.
Was clearly heard just at the point of wakening.
2 days previously had been pondering over the question of who we are when we die. At what stage do we remember? But what is it that we remember? No one knows, we just have theories and maybe one of them is convincing for us to latch onto, but I prefer to learn and find out myself.
All these different characters I’ve been . The boy with the silver/ white wig on I was shown twice in period costume ,which I felt at the time was me.
I wish Google or Safari would give me the answer.
If I stay Susan then has that boy and all the rest of us ( me) gone for good?
There are answers out there but I don’t know them as truths.

So ... The Personality Retires.....
I don’t have to be this personality anymore. It Retires, BUT it doesn’t dissolve. In physical life I could come out of retirement if I wished, but I don’t . So maybe I can bring up my personality on the other side, or in fact any previous personality when and if it is beneficial. Later I re- incarnate as Tom, but part of me stays aware in the spirit world . Tom struggles with how to make an apple pie , but the Susan part of Tom knows and tries to get the information through.The boy in the early 18000 knows something of his time that Tom is struggling with and tries to get through to him. Tom later passes on just like Susan and the young boy.
Does he now retire his personality and remember, or is there a process to go through first before remembering?
One thing I have been helped on is the first part of my Signature below.

“ FOREVER I’ll REMEMBER.” ( but WHEN?)

[susan]

This morning I was just recalling a dream which was just to do with my daily life and what’s going on so nothing worth remembering as it all made sense, when suddenly I saw a scene of a field of sheep, but every single sheep had a tall shepherd standing at its side. Each shepherd holding a long staff.

This had nothing to do with the dream ,however, the previous day I had been getting a bit bogged down with some reading, and had been watching the beautiful scenes from Juergen Ziewe.

This scene of the sheep and shepherds is a reminder for me that we all have our own shepherd( guidance) to lead us. We should not expect our journeys to be the same.

[susan]

OBE.
Woke up this morning about 3am . No energy work done, no visualisation done but my mind was trying to digest some videos I’d been watching. How can I take on board the teachings of these excellent videos without the necessary experiences first hand. This wasn’t about OBEs as they are proven to me but about our origins.
I must have slowed down my thoughts when I feel that jelly wobbly feeling. No noise, no vibrations, just slowly have the feeling of raising up.

I’m now moving but feel I’m lying on my back moving backwards.I could see scenery moving by fast and get the impression Im on a train on a journey. As I’m moving I’m working out that my body must have gone to sleep and as I’m lying on my back in bed then that must be why I’m perceiving the way I am.
Trying to focus on scenery but didn’t recognise anything but knew there was nothing that stood out as not belonging on earth but there were air bubbles above me as if I was under water. I found this amusing and remembered another time when I’ve had these bubbles when suddenly I’m standing on a platform but I don’t know where to go.
Someone appears from behind a screen wanting to know what I’m looking for. I don’t know.
Suddenly I’m back awake in bed again.

Thoughts
I think if I had just gone to sleep then I may have remembered this as a dream and analysed this as my feelings of not knowing how to progress further from a metaphysical point of view. I don’t want made up scenarios in astral. I want to know me and who I am and where I’m from and what I’ve experienced away from incarnations on earth.

[susan]

Two mornings in a row aware of leaving body .
Had been practising pore breathing for a change through the day so 3 am awake intending to go back to sleep but just did a little practice when I felt myself almost expand upwards. Knew what was happening and once again I’m floating backwards with bubbles around me and a fine sketching of a bottle floats above me . CouldnÂ’t keep the focus any longer and it ended.
What stood out here was the delicate drawing of the bottle .Had these very fine sketchings a few times over the years.They are lovely. As for the bottle , well I haven’t drank any form of alcohol for a few years now except the tiniest sip from hubbies glass the day before this. Just curious what I was missing. Happy to stick to my fruit juices.

This morning did the same and very quickly I’m floating backwards again but no bubbles this time. Just a starry black space above me. Unfortunately felt I was loosing vision and tried to open astral eyes (stupid, ) ended up opening physical eyes and that was it over.

[susan]

Woke up to a lovely singing voice.
So gentle and soothing.

This was the song from the film The Wizard Of Oz, Over The Rainbow but I had neither listened to it for a long time , nor seen the film, nor had I been thinking of it.
Tried to recall dream but it disappeared .I’d spent too long thinking how beautiful this was and wondering why.

I only heard the first two lines before it faded but I’ve copied more because its a beautiful deep meaning song now that I read the words and can understand why.


Somewhere over the rainbow, way up high
There's a land that I heard of once in a lullaby, I
Oh, somewhere over the rainbow skies are blue
Clouds high over the rainbow, makes all your dreams come true, ooh
Someday I'll wish upon a star
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where trouble melts like lemon drops
High above the chimney top
That's where you'll find me, oh
Somewhere over the rainbow, blue birds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Oh why, oh why can't I? I
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Went back to sleep and just upon wakening I saw a dream image of a tall elegant lady. Her skin was black, and immediately thought ,
Beautiful. Remember this.

Thoughts .
Previous night I was really down with everything . The destruction, unrest, sadness, bitterness shown on tv . Wishing I was on my own so I didn’t have to watch this but worst of all being forced into conversation about what is going on which ends in disagreements. I just didn’t want to be here in this room.I just wanted to be on my own .