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Last edited by replay; 14th September 2013 at 04:17 AM.
I don't know if anyone can give you a totally accurate interpretation, as your experiences are very personal. However, I'll try.
I am very sorry for your loss- what a terrible thing to have to go through.
My interpretation is that the monster is the personalization you have given to the act of suicide, or the depression or emotional turmoil they were in to cause this to happen.several very hard years later I had this dream: I was looking through an open window into a room, their was this hideous looking man like creature with green/yellowish eyes. It was standing on top of my father's mutilated body while lifting my brother off the ground by the neck and strangling him to death, all the while it was glaring straight at me with an evil snarling smile. That was the end of the dream.
I think it also represents the fear you have that 'it' also wants you- But you are strong and know this is not possible. This is why it's on the other side of the window, in 'their' area, not yours.
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"Stop acting as if life is a rehearsal" Dr. Wayne Dyer.
i can only say, it is not your fault, that you are not a monster as cause because you could not stop any of this from happening. precious are the good times of life, yet, how precious is the true soul that would grieve as though it were responsible for the bad times even as such a soul were not even in the very least accountable to the choices that other's made, nor for their reasons formed from lack of reasoning while in their overwhelming pain at the bitter ends of their colping skills. survivor's guilt feeling at fault is a hard deal, but that's love...a most precious gift indeed.
God is Love, and these beloved's of you are clear sign that they are within God's Love as well. cut the tie of personal guilt, letting yourself free of this, letting your beloved's free for leaving you behind to bear the pain that they for whatever reason could not deal with. you are a strong and true soul, both loving and much loved. dreams like this alert us to our inner unresolvable turnoils, unresolvable because we didint set it forth as ours to solve.
live as today's love, love as today's gift given to live. this is what i do everyday because of those in my life whom for no reason met death, leaving me to feel at fault because of something or other i shoulda coulda woulda done. truth is, all of it was out of control from the get go, and i am blessed to be yet living beyond it. i carry them in an ankle bracelet on my right ankle as a reminder of them and as a reminder of me not being guilty because i am yet alive. it's not how we may forget, it's how we choose to remember. Love
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"I'm no fighter, but I'm fighting, this whole world seems uninviting..."
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I am so sorry for your loss and I second both CFT´s and Tutors interpretations about guilt, maybe you have hard time to accept their choice to take theire life´s and it is always easier to blame some outside sourse to have caused it than that they them self´s made this decission for them self....Does this make you unsure of yourself that you might be forced to same destiny??...You are stronger than that....Have you given yourself time to grief the loss of your both father and brother??..Give your self time and then keep the lovely memories you have with them...and forgive them for the choice they made and forgive your self for have bean in fear so many years.
Let love spread in your whole existence.
Love
ia
Core Affirmation: I am loved and I am worthy,
I am safe and I am free.
I am powerfully protected.
I am master of my body and ruler of my mind.
By Robert Bruce
Bravo replay,
the first step is bleeding out the story, giving it voice, admitting the loss of everything as if to have arived at nothing, "I am broken, beat down and defeated! I'm tired.".
Beautifully stated, and as simple as the Truth IS. Believe it or not, this is Victory's outcry! and you are that Victory giving Voice to Truth.
[editted out poetic content due to further OP content]
Last edited by Tutor; 14th September 2013 at 03:19 AM.
I Don't Ever Give Up: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ktpTyT1Wj_I
"I'm no fighter, but I'm fighting, this whole world seems uninviting..."
Avatar: Passion Baby!
Making Love Out of Nothing @ ALL: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iyFsyC4LqK4
Az for Me, of my Self, I am Home
Remember that you always have time to rest. Even though you feel beaten, you're not. This is why the view was across the window.
I am going to assume you have gotten some therapy to help you cope with the loss and guilt. Are you getting any support now, like in a group or community?
https://linktr.ee/CoralieCFTraveler
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"Stop acting as if life is a rehearsal" Dr. Wayne Dyer.
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I Don't Ever Give Up: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ktpTyT1Wj_I
"I'm no fighter, but I'm fighting, this whole world seems uninviting..."
Avatar: Passion Baby!
Making Love Out of Nothing @ ALL: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iyFsyC4LqK4
Az for Me, of my Self, I am Home
Glad you are here replay. There is a lot to be learned from OBE, which is why I am here as well.
the topical title is "can anyone please give accurate interpretation?". hmmmm, i am afraid "replay" to write what i feel to express in reflection to your last post above, because i realize you'd rather read what you'd identify as supportive to your False Evidence Appearing Real. i respect that, been there myself.
one thang is for sure, we aint..."you guys" to have ended up with. but, we are folks having been and come/coming through our own trials and tribulations, whom could give you relatively accurate feedback. i honestly don't recommend that to any members/moderators/forum et all, within respect that you aint getting the help you MUCH need in your immediate world. help that is immediately available by your sole choice to accept and receive.
human anguish is not from the human body per se, even as the reactive human body is racked with symptoms. anguish is you, or not you, and the disconnection and/or projection from the human body is never going to be disconnection from you, for you are that which is being within a human body.
ya see, you've happened upon a group of b.s'ers. we've said it and we've heard it all. so dont imagine to be b.s'n. other b.s'ers.
what we're yackin about, as per your topic, is suicidal thoughts...............YOURS. we aint here to be your therapists or your guys.
GET SOME HELP AT YOUR CLOSEST V.A.!
VA Suicide Prevention Hotline 1-800-273-8255...press 1 for Veterans
and it doesnt have to be suicidal thought, you can call that number when any feelings of crisis erupt within you or within your life in general. it is ok to be in crisis, none of us have all the coping skills we require or wish we had.
Go Navy!
Last edited by Tutor; 14th September 2013 at 03:27 AM.
I Don't Ever Give Up: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ktpTyT1Wj_I
"I'm no fighter, but I'm fighting, this whole world seems uninviting..."
Avatar: Passion Baby!
Making Love Out of Nothing @ ALL: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iyFsyC4LqK4
Az for Me, of my Self, I am Home
B.s.ing.? Everything I said was true. " you guys" is just an expression that you read to much into. Wasn't how I meant it. But ok I get you.
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