need a heal over

[Multihealer]

Hi Lightworker!
You know, when you are nearest enlightment it is the hardest time. It always is like that.

Ill send a prayer your way any do this to your self the following two weeks or so.

Type down changes every day that is improving or just no occuring. And let us know what has wanished from the problem front in two weeks. I promiss you that you will be amazed.

Love and light
Kent

[CFTraveler]

to cftraveler, I'm really ashamed saying this to other people but i'l try..
Yes I think I'm still worthless and my high test scores don't prove anything.
How do I say this. If I knew my problem,... I wouldn't be asking for help.
I'm starting to hate this forum I've just started honestly. It just makes me look like I'm clamouring for attention.
I don't know what to say anymore. thanks anyway.

First off: Having a problem and asking for help isn't clamoring for attention, and if it is, so what? That is what we are all here for- some of us have had stuff and others' help is what got us to believing we can help others.
Your problem is that you don't feel worthy. Where did this belief come from? A parent? Family? Friends? It is my experience that smart people (like you) come from smart families that sometimes put unfair pressure on their children and make them feel that no matter how good they do in school, it's still not good enough. There is actually a post somewhere here about gifted children- if I find it I'll post a link.
If that is your problem and you don't feel comfortable posting publicly then send me a pm (or whoever you feel comfortable pm'ing) and we'll be very happy to at least lend some insight into how to tackle your problems. Please don't give up!
The fact that this makes you uncomfortable tells me that we're onto something. I have in other posts said (about my life) that stuff is 'coming up to be healed.' This is painful but if not's up & out it can't be consciously dealt with, instead of letting it go in and rule your life.
Please think about it!

I agree with CF that you probably have stuff that is coming up to be healed. I also agree with everyone that what you are going through is nothing to be ashamed of, that's only your insecurity talking. We all need a helping hand now and then.

Your experience after graduating happens to quite a few people. You have defined your life as being a good student. For years your life was one of study, diligence, tests, and teachers basically telling you what to do. By doing well at this, your self-esteem becomes all wrapped up in this, and suddenly it's all over. The world becomes a very scary place because you no longer have someone telling you what to do, giving you assignments, telling you what to study for tests, etc. You are suddenly on your own, and have to make all your own decisions. Your lifeline has been cut off.

If I sound like I know what I'm talking about, it's because I've been through it. Quite a few times, in fact. The worst was when my son's doctors released him from medical care after 3 years of chemotherapy. You'd think I'd be happy...he was in remission, healthy, thrilled not to endure more pain. But, I went into a tailspin. I felt like the doctors had pushed us out into the cold, cruel world and were no longer there to help, reassure, and do constant tests to make sure he was ok. We were on our own. I went into a deep depression for at least a month. But, it got better.

Baby steps, always take baby steps. You don't have to take the world by storm all at once. Do little things to help yourself. Asking for help is a really good one. Take some time to learn to love yourself. That list of your good points/assests someone recommended is a good idea. I'd recommend focusing at first on your good points. Write down the bad, acknowledge them, and then set them aside until you are stronger. This isn't a good time to dwell on your negative side. Your focus needs to be to increase your self-esteem. Like attracts like, and the more energy you put into the positive, the more positive energy will be drawn to you.

You've been working hard and probably living quite a stressful life with getting ready for exams. Now, it's done...all over and there's nothing to focus your attention on. Refocus your attention. Read some books or e-books on self-esteem and spirituality. Learn to see yourself in a new light. No longer the student in school, but become a student of life. So many people have been through this and come out the other side. Find their stories. It can give you inspiration. Once you find the "new you", you will be able to interview and find that job that you have worked so hard to prepare for. If you have financial resources to fall back on (parents, family, savings, whatever) don't focus on getting a job right now. Focus on getting you right, right now.

BTW, what is your license? Don't say if you're not comfortable with telling us.

[lightworker]

oh my god... everything you all said just hit me.

before I even clicked this forum I started to think..." here we go again... all talk of nonsense"

I did n't realize that you guys just want to help.

I feel healed right now. I'm crying for some reason. I think it's because every word is true.

To everyone who spent time on me in this forum I created. thank you.
to cftraveler, clearly you don't want to give up on me. For that thank you. Sophroniscus, sash, thank you for your input.
Multihealer, negishail, I will do what you say. I will continue writing down on this forum any development that is the result of your advice.
Painterhypnogirl, I want to tell you thank you. Your words proved to be the most powerful one for me. Do you know you can do this?

thank you all. I don't think there is anything else to be discussed here.

[lightworker]

I just want to say thank you to averyone who prayed for me.

I don't know what magic just happened here but guess what? I got a job!

Btw I'm a licensed interior designer, and I just got a visual merchandising job at Lulu Castagnette. After that I was able to ride the mass transit on my own, for the first time. It was liberating.

Looks like a good positive energy has been drawn towards me!

[lightworker]

Hi alex! Thank you. And I'm happy to report that I just got two job offers
a few minutes ago. Unfortunately I told them, that I got a job just this morning!

In some bizarre turn of events, things suddenly go this way. Those are some mighty prayers you sent my way multihealer. And to others who have prayed for me as well, it worked!

Is it just me, or am I the only one finding this too coincidental? Anyway, it's all turned out good.

Wow, that's great! Now, that's what I call manifesting! You didn't waste any time, did you? Hehe! BTW, I used to work as an interior designer by way of owning my own furniture store. I've had many incarnations in this one incarnation.