Had a raging panic attack in the early evening. Had slept all day and missed the thing I had to go to today. I felt angry and on edge,but not sure why i was so angry. I just felt so stuck. I couldn't stop crying and shaking. M's husband heard me and came in and talked with me,and prayed and then gave me a pill of some sort. I deactivated one of my social medias for awhile. I started to feel better shortly after. I think I just needed to give myself a break. Shortly after,I felt calm,upbeat,and things started to feel kind of clear..and new.
-M's husband coming in and helping me.
-calming down and mood changing to feeling clearer,and calmer,and more upbeat
-getting that time of the month
-massage. the more i pay attention to my body,it's just strange. my hands and feet had so much tension i noticed tonight,i wonder if perhaps,it's the emotions of earlier made them tense.
-vegan ramen
-deactivating one of my social medias
-water
-sweet soda
-ease
-backbends
-deep cleansing breaths
-the meditative insights from last night
-entertainment
-the internet
-music
-thinking positive
-fashion and style and lots of nice looking things online
-very nice weather today and how great the air felt
-job possibilities
-allowing myself to think more and more about the possibilities of being in a romantic relationship again in my life and how nice that would be when it happens
-yoga pants
-self forgiveness
-medications i took today.
-an interesting and educational article i read tonight
-cleaning up and organizing my closet some more
-inspiration
-starting the next course from the course package i bought online back in january
-my tastes in things
-the things i want to do for fun
-acceptance
-surrender
-reserving another class from the class pack i bought in december
-embracing and allowing imperfection
-cats
-buying 3 bags of cat litter and sending to my mom
-art
-fashion photography
-my eyecolor
-my beauty
-unique beauty
-hairties and my hair barrette
-drinking more water today
-clarity
-having nice teeth
-my lower body getting nice and sculpted and toned from hamstring work
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