me and the guy i was talking to are done, before it even began. i was sad and off crying all day about it and took two extra ativans. he wanted to meet up and i said maybe then tried confiding in him about my past to overcompensate for the fact that he seemed like he felt rejected or something and i wanted to let him know it's not him and i did agree to meet up or next week then he said im not ready for dating basically. later in the evening,i gave him a piece of my mind telling him i think part of him is saying that because of his ego and that we are all works in progress and i just go with the flow and i feel like im ready to date i will and that he needs to do some growing himself, etc, etc. Very sad. I thought i liked this one. A rotten day. I was literally having anxiety all morning and thought honesty would be the best thing. Yeah,i should've filtered more that was a mistake but him and how he was is also a mistake and i can do better.
-giving R a piece of my mind later in the evening after he rejected me.
-ativan
-shopping
-coffee
-entertaiment
-relaxing
-being strong
-feeling my feelings
-fashion
-beautiful things
-being authentic to myself
-the breeze by my window
-physical exercise
-standing up for myself
-ferulic acid and reservertrol serum
-having money
-showering
-sunshine
-reading
-sleep
-being productive
-my talents
-my confidence starting to go up a little more
-cute animal stories
-staying motivated
-having empathy for others
-having nice eyes
-pleasant memories
-having nice lips
-acceptance
-surrender