GRATITUDE LIST

[buttercup]

-starting to fall in love with my life again
-an old,one of my first crushes accepting my fb friend request. i don't know why he was on my mind but he was. this will be perfect to tell my therapist. she wanted me to write a letter i wouldn't send to some people,and well,instead i decided to add him on fb.
-realizing how much i feel like i can do,the freedom now that ex best friend is out of my life. that was partially why i added the crush. almost like anger/revenge towards ex-best friend and wanting to go back to my past in a sense,to a time before i even met ex-best friend. part of me wants to go and do all the things i feel like ex-best friend held me back from.i feel this surge of energy and clarity like i can just do so much more now. there was so much subconscious ways i held back because of him but he has been so awful to me in a way where it's as if he is dead to me,and that's what he wanted that i can literally just go back in time as if what would i do if i didn't have to consider him at all but was just free. and,it's actually really interesting.i literally have no reason not to do certain things. there is no longer a reason to feel guilty or anything.
-business partner telling me we have enough material to release our project
-pizza i had for dinner
-feeling very cared for. i had no food in the house and M arranged so we went all the way to whole foods on a random tuesday so i can get myself some groceries. she really has such a kind heart.
-the amazing workout i got today.i did cycling class then yoga class
-deep stretching
-my backbends getting deeper.
-getting a new dentist appt made since i overslept for the one i had today
-my style
-actually having really nice body lines.
-being very beautiful actually
-affirmations
-makeup
-donating more money to animal charity i like
-pumpkin spice latte i seen that i bought
-feeling like life has gotten spiced up a bit with the guy from work getting my number,and me randomly adding an old crush and him accepting. it's so weird. it got me thinking deep thoughts about time.
-seeing i'm one of the few people from my past when iwas in school that actually looks really great still,and has a lot of cool things going on. I am so grateful. It is so weird seeing people from way back then and their lives are just so different from mine. mediocre. the people i thought were really cool or beautiful,just aren't anymore. my old crush for example,if i seen him in person nowadays based on his fb,he wouldn't interest me. it feels weirdly cool...powerful even..for the the roles to have changed. for me to be the really cool one and interesting one.
-realizing i can start doing some work on my project i didn't want to consider before and that it wouldn't be a big deal.
-music
-that i get to california soon and will be a longer time then i have been there for in awhile. so excited
-all the money i am now earning
-my cute new calvin klein socks i got recently. very stylish and sexy they are.
-having a very nice lower body
-getting more things organized and shredding an old notebook. it was cathartic. i want to throw out my old journals. i have so many that take up so much space and i can barely read my writing anyways and have felt drawn to do it,as a spiritual thing even. the old notebook was just a planner with notes in it,but it was a start.
-the beautiful nightskies tonight
-sunshine
-smiling
-having a higher spiritual understanding then before
-a lot of things i'm wanting being manifested.