started reading the power,and once i got to this sentence about life not meant where moments of joy are few and far between i wanted to start crying. if that's the case,then why is that my life?
-staying strong. yesterday,i had on and off anxiety filled depressive breakdowns and was pretty much crying all day. I'm trying harder now though to keep my vibe high.
-finishing my book on mental influence and starting the power
-chocolate cake
-the sunshine. felt so good today,i thought i should just start meditating outside again. those always were my best meditations.
-practicing mental influence
-coffee
-soda
-healthy digestion
-friendly neighbors
-animal lovers
-talking to friendly neighbors while looking for T kitten who said they feed and care for a bunch of outdoor cats,too and that they'll keep an eye out for him
-feeling in my gut that T kitten is well and nobody tried to bring them in their house.
-seeing again the cat that isn't dad and the cat allowing itself to be closer. this cat likes to be really close to E cat. From the back and side the cat definitely looks like s kitten,but so far im not sure about the face
-online forums who talk about how they've had cats go missing for days,weeks,and even years and come back like nothing and reading again how people in europe think it's weird how americans think it's cruel to keep your outdoors and that in europe it's more the norm for cats to be outdoor
-getting the lysine treats in the mail for H cat and some homepathic medicine to try for him
-my new eye in a triangle shirt
-wearing my new glitter pool slides. i keep buying things then never wearing them so figured i should start.
-quiet
-sertraline
-sleep
-pills that calm me down
-doing some stuyding and getting through 2 lessons so far
-my beauty
-my agelessness
-stretches. my body felt awful from not doing anything to work it out yesterday
-my phone
-seeing a contributor got an article done for me
-feeling my third eye lately being activated. i'm getting the hunch to start spending more time on that chakra since i feel like i use it a lot when practicing mental influence. i start to yawn and get twitches in my forehead.
-the fan in my room
-deciding to take the lesson that as much as i care for the cats,and want them in my life,i care-take for them in a worrying way still and need to let go of that.
-touch
-the feeling of my feet with no shoes and socks on
-yoga pants
-organically altering beliefs that dont feel good to keep. today,i found myself trying to shift the belief that anyone has any power over me or can create in my reality.
-eye stretches
-deciding to change how i do my savings to simplify it
-getting a call for some work.i decided i don't want to do it but i don't think it'd be wrong for someone to do it with my beliefs if they felt they really needed to take it. it has to do with meat and i dont like being around meat but if i felt really desperate for the work,i don't think it'd be morally wrong to do it,because the more financial abundance you have,the more you can help animals anyways. i just think i can find something else,and more fitting instead.
-deep cleansing breaths
-taking care of myself
-seeing reality changes already. M's husband uses the word might now in regards to a situation instead of calling it a certainty now.
-TV episodes online
-getting caught up on my phone calls
-getting my health insurance switched
-getting my psychiatrist appointment bumped up for tomorrow
-getting my appointment for my chemical peel made
-my glycolic eyecream
-getting some exercise from going around looking for T kitten