GRATITUDE LIST

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-popsicles
-water
-coffee
-going for walks
-my lower body looking more toned
-the tv show i'v been watching on huly
-getting my meds early from the pharmacy
-practicing on the pole
-caring souls
-staying focused
-doing the work i wanted to do today
-colors
-plants
-sunshine
-greenery
-my beauty
-having nice lips
-having nice eyebrows
-stylish fashions
-cleaning and decluttering my home
-love
-cats
-buying some champagne i wanted to try for my upcoming birthday
-buying a new bathmat from a kawaii website
-mr. clean magic eraser
-my appetite shrinking
-romance
-pleasant memories
-hope
-connection
-inspiration
-help
-having beautiful hair
-doing an energy meditation yesterday
-blankets
-sleeping in my bed more often
-birds chirping
-great deals
-healing
-pictures
-goals
-physical exercise
-growing as a person
-self forgiveness
-appreciating my unique beauty
-things to look forward to
-my phone

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-getting makeup in the mail i ordered for my bday
-J finally letting me go after finally hurling some last insults at me
-getting my recaps in
-trusting all will work out
-getting booked for more special events and on premise work
-hydration
-water
-my beauty
-my weight going down
-my lower body getting tighter
-cats
-cuteness
-rest
-getting a pedicure and manicure and how much that made me feel better about myself
-my birthday candies i have
-how vibrant everything is in summer
-remembering the positives of J from last year, not the J i went to school with
-my tv show i've been watching on hulu
-enjoying my coffee by the nice fake waterfall stream area they have in the plaza and how relaxing it was
-scrubbing the feral cat water bowl clean today
-my majesty palm plant
-ativan
-yoga
-inspiration
-newness
-my kindness
-my thoughtfulness
-my babyface
-my unique look
-the new experiences i get to have as part of my job
-spending time in nice neighborhoods
-learning new things about people and that things aren't always as they seem
-having great cheekbones
-prayer
-setting intentions
-spirituality
-seeing through people's b.s
-not having to work tomorrow
-checking myself and deciding i will better myself
-hyaluronic acid
-things to look forward to
-seeing how creative people are

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-finally starting to get this house really clean
-M's wife's friend D taking me out for my b-day last night and giving me a really nice birthday card that was an animal advocate card of chimps that had used art therapy to heal and him saying he had bought his last hallmark card and how much that had moved my heart.
-M's friend getting me a little gift and having a vintage bike that would actually be perfect for me that i decided to accept that's he had in the garage for years that's his wife's that she no longer uses
-new experences
-people getting to know you
-the birthday cards m and her husband got me
-reassurances
-my beauty
-the weather cooling off a bit
-getting more on premise and special event work
-my green happy alien looking birthday balloon i got
-ordering a tropical balloon bouquet i wanted
-people who are kind to me and take my side
-ativan
-great music
-new experiences
-healing
-learning
-my esthethician saying i am so beautiful and special and that everyone at the office sees it and says so, too. little things like that make me feel good.
-being able to work some cool events and do some cool things and have unique experiences
-the birthday candy i bought myself recently and eating some the night i came home from getting fired from the event and was upset
-my goals
-being unique
-things to look forward to
-fashion
-shopping
-setting intentions
-being beautiful
-trees
-plants
-coffee
-my medications
-cats
-entertainment
-working hard and smart to improve things that are bothering me
-my beautiful palm tree shower curtain
-that i'll be finished with the bathroom by tonight and can start the hallways
-my appreciation for beauty
-drinking apple cider vinegar with water today
-having beautiful eyes
-having great curves
-having amazing hair
-photo editing apps
-my toe nails and the beautiful blue/green turquoise color they are
-water
-ceramides and how much they've seemed to change my skin
-prayer
-being a nice person
-being intelligent
-beauty
-newness
-taking deep cleansing breaths
-air conditioning
-blankets
-adding extra money to my saks bill
-lipgloss
-taking things one step at a time
-pronoia
-having faith
-having great cheekbones
-being able to wake up tommorow on my birthday in a clean apartment
-self forgiveness
-ideas
-compliments
-beautiful things
-models
-my stress levels going down
-colors

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-calming down a bit from all the hell i've been through the last days
-people who have been there for me
-healthy digestion
-B being there for me
-getting a police report filed
-trusting God that the bad is taking me to a better place
-my flowers still looking nice
-police officers
-my plan to possibly move out of my city and to nyc
-water
-ceramides
-crying and grieving
-the bathroom being cleaning and working on the hallway leading to the kitchen
-going through which shoes to keep today
-maintaining keeping apartment clean today
-cancelling work because i was too sad
-buying a card for one of those people who believing in me since my early days
-coffee
-buying magnets for my animal advoacy project i started using T cat's image
-buying cute silver western boots. hopefully they fit,i had to buy a half size smaller.
-donating to my favorite animal charity
-knowing i have to become a new me now after all this pain that's gone on
-ordering new business cards
-M's husband calling me after work to wish me happy birthday and listening to me talk about my horrible day
-my cute alien balloon. not sure if it's actually an alien but it's a round smiley face that's green and it makes me happy.
-the air conditioner
-my creativity
-veuve clicquot champagne
-my creativity
-the little things that make me happy
-being a kind person
-manifesting my heart's desires
-having great cheekbones
-updating my resume
-adding a signature to my gmail
-compliments
-my beautiful mint green dkny towels
-my phone
-photo editing apps
-my medications
-entertainment
-sleep
-inspiration
-that i'm getting lip injections soon and putting just about almost all the money i need on the card for it so i can make the appt in a day or so
-great deals
-laughter
-trying to be productive

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-pulling it together little by little
-doing some mad shopping yesterday, way more then i probably should have
-realizing i had some more money, cash from my birthday i can deposit to make my bank account healthier
-the nerd makeup compact i've been wanting coming back in stock yesterday
-my tropical bouquet
-warning my neighbors about the bully who's been stalking me and showing him his picture and finding out more creepy info because him and other neighbors have seen him and his car before in front of the house
-water
-aloe vera supplement
-youtube entertainment i've been watching
-cats
-ceramides
-compliments
-reassurances
-the agency that fired me from my favorite clients putting me in their newsletter giving me a shoutout recognition from the same event that got me fired thus proving i wasn't in the wrong and it's all a money game
-getting better at keeping my apartment clean
-no longer taking my amlodopine
-my candies
-my medications
-coffee
-M saying her husband can bring me to work tonight
-sunshine
-intermittent fasting
-evolving and faster then certain lower vibe people who can't get over me
-spirituality
-having nice curves
-yoga
-having beautiful curves
-having a young face
-prayer
-pronoia
-my prada socks
-allowing myself to transform into a new me
-buying and designing new animal advocacy magnets with T cat's photo on them.
-donating to one of my favorite animal charitie's
-ordering new business cards with a new design
-plants
-newness
-losing weight
-my pedicure
-self forgiveness

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-feeling like you and your shy friend B are starting to reconnect
-handling the third kick to the stomach that happened tonight with grace and seeing it as possibly a good thing and feeling even slightly prepared for it and buying a cat trap right away with my credit right away and asking to be reimbursed for it and seeing that now m's husband probably has to be cancel his agreement he had of cutting back on giving me rides with this kick to the stomach i was served and this might all just make my life more efficient
-finishing cleaning the first hallway closet
-working today
-working yesterday with that one girl who i thought was cool and inspiring months ago
-getting the magnet draft approved
-finally being off amlodopine
-my cute sheer pink heart socks
-rest and sleep
-my appetite having shrunk quite a bit this last week
-my phone
-iced lattes
-compliments
-yoga
-clorox wipes
-spending time with mom cat today
-being a warrior and not letting others bring me down
-my strength
-having beautiful, shiny, thick hair
-water
-ideas on what to do with my life and starting to pull it together
-listening to others
-updating my resume
-having my appt for my lip injections
-remembering how talented i am
-my creativity
-my style
-my intelligence
-taking out the window fans so i can use them more and the a.c less
-apple cider vinegar
-blankets
-the internet
-hyaluronic acid
-ceramides
-watching youtube and hulu
-entertainment
-inspiration
-looking young
-moisturizers
-my power
-my beauty
-having nice eyes
-having nice cheekbones
-flowers
-my femininity
-prayer
-being a nice person

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-going through hell and coming out of it feeling more free
-losing a friend but then realizing he wasn't really that great of a friend
-a new unexpected potential romantic love interest "M" who i never ever would've expected but after he fixed my last piece of jewelry we texted a few times, then i stopped, then i did again, then it seemed like he had missed it and it started to get heated and flirty
-another loss, which may actually benefit me anyways and was something i was prepared could happen one day. a transition in how we co-care take for the feral cats.
-my beauty
-getting my lip injections
-having beautiful eyes
-rest
-losing weight
-having beautiful hair
-getting some amazing new shopping purchases
-entertainment
-water
-vegan burritos
-physical exercise
-surrendering to life and coming out of the craziness stronger now
-learning new things
-evolving as a person
-having l cat over the other day
-people who support me
-the weather being cooler the other day
-feeling ready to evolve and for new things
-appetite shrinking quite a bit since stopping one of my meds
-face massage
-processing things
-my face tan water
-new opportunities
-ceramides vitamins
my hyaluronic acid lip gloss
-setting intentions
-compliments
-making changes

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-music
-creativity
-people who help me and support me
-finally getting a budlight shirt for my job yesterday
-doing a bar job yesterday
-always finding the best shopping finds
-my beauty
-my eyes
-my lips
-having great curves
-compliments
-M having taken an interest in me
-my comeback that's soon to come
-having a babydoll face
-my mario collection candy that came in the mail today
-having great taste
-having a super easy time fasting and eating much more minimally since stopping one of my meds i had suspected that i never gave a fair shot of stopping since i went right back on it after stopping in the fall and my weight starting to drop a little
-my medications
-coffee
-being considered sexy
-my bully starting to be nicer
-getting through hell and starting to feel free
-the cute strawberry kitchen sponges i bought
-mopping and sweeping my kitchen floor and cleaning the stove
-having l cat over and being ready for h cat to be over
-my dad helping me get bully's real address by driving his house and giving me $40
-having the mattress in my living room now which is comfortable and makes me feel nice since it's coolest in this room
-the weather cooling off some
-people being nice to me
-pronoia and having faith
-free drinks
-kind people
-great deals
-meeting new people
-inspiration
-being talented
-my authenticity
-being smart
-being offered more jobs by another one of my agencies

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-my lip injections
-support from others
-how my skin looks with my airbrush tan
-deciding i want to become more eco-conscious
-interesting environmental articles
-cleaning and organizing my fridge
-going for walks
-trolling others and how funny it is and laughing
-my beauty
-being sexy
-getting a check in my account yesterday that covers my rent for the month
-having nice hair
-getting a good amount of jobs from one of my regular agencies these days which will help for next month's finances
-wearing my new cat bracelet i bought recently today
-hanging out with m's husband today after he helped me run an errand and going with him to run an errand then we went to lunch
-my bed
-ice cold water
-sunshine
-my fashion sense
-my strawberry kitchen sponges
-iced almond milk lattes
-being easy on myself
-my medications
-my gucci slides
-sleep
-rest
-having cool companies to work for
-having things to look forward to
-letting myself recover even if it's just slightly
-reflection
-my creativity
-entertainment to watch on youtube and hulu
-unique tastes
-remembering fun

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-making headway with the cat breaking through the cat issue barrier. i may just have done it.
-fasting today
-being productive today
-coffee
-meditation
-sushine
-starting to heal
-my balcony
-ice cold water
-nyc trip being around the corner
-having an enjoyable conversation on the phone with J tonight
-sportsbras
-my bed
-cats
-releasing my anger
-burning my incense on the balcony this morning
-M saying he will fix my bathroom this fall
-having nice big chest
-having a nice curvy bottom
-being beautiful
-having a very young look and voice and mannerisms
-lip injections
-having a nice body
-having lived my dreams
-being smart
-handling some of the blows i've been dealt with well
-doing some spiritual writing check-ins
-physical exercise
-going for walks
-ceramides
-high current facials
-being female
-my femininity
-having work
-going to the pool
-buying a concert ticket to one of my favorite music artist's
-my authenticity
-being happy for other people
-my great taste in things
-buying a new microwave
-buying chic new ice cube trays
-organizing and decluttering and cleaning the kitchen
-pronoia
-my discover card
-adding more purple to my hair color tonight
-learning
-reflection
-healing
-having great hair
-candy
-fashion
-my medications
-clorox wipes