-my strength after J just ignoring me after me telling him i dont think things will work out and me texting him things and crying all night and him calling but him not getting it so i hung up and he could've came to my house, he could've tried harder. i texted him in the morning, afternoon, and he's ignored me since the 2nd time i hung up on him last night. he hasn't ghosted me/ignored me like this since shortly after our first date when we had an argument but this was a very big fight and he made very little effort and i'm very hurt. sweetest day weekend starts tommorow and now it might be ruined. he can't admit his wrongs or seem to have common sense on how or why i'm upset and instead just drops me after everything. he knew i was and am hurting and this is how he reacts. i thought we had a future. i chose him. but he's been lying. so i'm grateful so my strength.
-thankful that i opened my checking account and had a lot more money then i expected and treated myself to my own sweetest day gift. the saint lauret wallet i was planning on buying myself for christmas.
-making the credit card payment i needed to make
-putting money aside for an upcoming procedure i'm getting
-fasting yesterday
-fasting today
-M taking me out today when i told him i was really upset and needed to get out and did he need any company for any errands he was running
-fashion
-beauty
-sportsbras
-getting one of the doctor appointments i need made done
-M bringing me my resume again the other day for me my 2nd interview with company that liked me and wanted to see me for a 2nd interview
-my retinol serum
-my hyaluronic acid serum
-listening to some solar plexus spiritual music to strengthen my center right now
-yoga pants
-my new gucci sunglasses that are a smaller shape which is a newer thing for me
-blankets
-having beautiful hair
-healthy digestion
-working on rearranging the dining room and decluttering and cleaning it
-feeling my feelings
-good quotes
-booking a last minute charity event to work this weekend
-trees
-sunshine
-ideas
-having nice lips
-talking to my manager/fashion friend in nyc today for a little while
-appreciation
-buying my mom 2 humidifiers and holistic cat medicine that should take care of the issue her cat is having
-having a new set of pics for a new article for my magazine
-unique beauty
-creativity
-yoga
-learning
-reflection
-goals
-self improvement
-entertainment
-inspiration
-innocence
-traveling
-healing
-art
-creativity
-taking care of the credit card fraud with my credit card
-my credit score going up a point
-water
-smiling
-my new jade roller and how great it's been working for my skin
-peaceful sounds
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