GRATITUDE LIST

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-my weight dropping and clothes fitting loose from skipping meals
-light and lighting. nice lighting that can just change a mood so much.
-the breeze in my apartment from the balcony window
-cotton candy
-french toast
-potatoes
-that it was sunny out today
-putting my zygocactus in the sun today
-candy
-wearing spring time shoes(my slides) for the first time this year and season and how nice that felt
-walking to the grocery store
-my new textured face roller
-chemical peels
-how great my face and skin been looking
-wearing my leisure black track pants with leopard print on the sides today
-having great style
-good news
-lorazapam
-an acquaintance selflessly who is doing ok right now with finances with all the things shut down sending me $100. That was so beautiful and unexpected
-my laptop computer
-talking to my ex today on the phone
-blankets
-pillows
-sleep
-rest
-beautiful things
-being beautiful
-connecting more with my old acquaintance V yesterday but then he got weird on me again today
-showers
-cats
-cuteness
-hugs
-my phone and people to text
-newness
-learning
-calmness
-trying to be productive
-innovaton
-being smart
-having amazing hair
-hoodies
-surrendering
-being included in the relief package by my president
-peace
-feeling positive
-having a kind heart
-showering
-slippers
-m's husband being there for me and M
-peaceful sounds

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-community
-that i'm eligible for stimulus check coming and disaster unemployment assistance
-m's husband telling me to find out about an extra step i need to take since i didnt file taxes for the last two years
-cotton candy
-alcoholic beverages
-pills that calm me down and taking them safely
-music
-the breeze that comes in from my balcony window
-newness
-hot soothing tea
-face rollers for relieving tension and making me look youthful
-sleeping masks for face and lips
-apple cider vinegar and all it's benefits
-sleep
-being able to talk to m's husband
-having some trust in my government and in God
-feeling like this is all happening because God wants us to mediate
-new adidas socks
-that we don't have to pay rent and doing my part to help make protections for not having to pay rent during all this possible
-my phone
-my hair looking lighter
-my face looking young
-going for a walk today
-sunshine
-finding a really cool, chic laundry products and home cleaning products line and buying some
-getting another payment i'm supposed to make monthly deferred until june
-art
-inspiration
-staying strong
-motivation
-great lighting
-beautiful things
-blankets
-yoga
-learning
-discovering new things
-laughter and humor
-being kind to others
-cuteness
-fashion
-great deals
-the internet
-nightskies
-relaxation
-remembering nice things
-smiling
-meditation

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-colors
-relaxing
-reassurances
-indication that my unemployment assistance should be coming soon
-m's husband being more there for me lately it seems
-having a nice body
-having a nice young face
-blankets
-getting my almond milk iced latte today
-beautiful weather today
-friendly police officers at a store today
-m's husband buying me my majesty palm plant i love that i've been wanting again for awhile
-m's husband taking me to the bank further from the house so i can get out of the house for longer
-blankets
-ibuprofen 800
-pillows
-showering
-blow-drying my hair
-aloe vera
-water
-seeing toilet paper at the store by my house for the first time in awhile which was nice
-conversation
-pictures
-forgiveness
-my gucci shades
-my rose face face spray
-brushing my hair
-my givenchy slides
-my great taste
-realizing there's a lot i have to work on
-being an adult
-music
-thinking of the positive sides to things
-cuteness
-fashion
-making little efforts to make my life better, cheer myself up
-being able to think for myself
-plants
-beauty

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-plants
-colors
-beautiful weather today
-staying determined to make today an ok day and succeeding
-getting something indicating my unemployment is on the way
-my beautiful majesty palm plant and how much happier it makes my house feel
-meditating and writing affirmations on my balcony today
-reassurances
-calming down
-ice cold water
-nightskies
-naps
-yoga
-entertainment
-beauty
-brushing my hair
-deep cleansing breaths
-inspiration
-reaching out to people on social media
-baby wipes
-m's husband to reach out to
-baby wipes
-beauty products
-femininity
-painting my toenails with my new chanel nail polish since i cant get a pedicure right now
-smiling
-peace
-nice lighting
-looking on the bright side of things
-being able to think for myself
-imagining myself as beautiful
-nightskies
-the breeze by my balcony window
-cleaning out my promo closet
-the internet
-entertainment
-the hair lightening process i've been doing working
-art

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-plants
-my majesty palm plant
-flowers
-sleep
-going to the bank again today and getting my new account usable, somewhat
-heart-warming stories
-cuteness
-ice cold water
-getting some progress done on cleaning my promo closet
-ideas
-good tasting food
-talking to people online
-brushing my hair
-yoga
-surrender
-positive news stories
-iced almond milk lattes
-entertainment
-aloe vera
-feeling relaxed
-candy
-toning my body
-the breeze that comes through my balcony window
-donating money to an animal charity the other day
-colors
-the internet
-making effort
-thinking positive
-staying strong
-positive things to daydream about
-pictures

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-candy
-peaceful sounds
-taking my workouts more seriously and feeling a result from it and seeing the beginnings of a result
-bad things turning into good things
-sweating from working out
-that i have funds now from my overdraft protection to pay my rent
-that the president briefings sound optimistic about re-opening the country
-doing the turbo tax thing to try and get my stimulus check quicker
-being productive and staying informed.
-fashion
-sunshine
-hyaluronic acid
-surrendering and turning to God
-prayer
-meditation
-cats
-pictures
-after finding out one of my accounts was closed unexpectedly and through no fault of my own, getting a new one open and now with more funds without having to keep effort on that one at the moment but just having more funds now when i need them
-the breeze that comes through my balcony window
-good music to dance to
-m's husband helping me today and being nice to me
-supporting friends
-ordering my mom two cat litter boxes and sending them to her
-my rose face mist
-iced almond milk lattes
-getting the new toilet seat installed. had to exchange the pink as it was too long, but now have a classy looking wood one that makes my bathroom look much nicer then it did before
-hand wash
-optimism and seeing the silver lining
-being resourceful and creative
-animals
-my femininity
-my rose quartz heart
-getting another payment deferred today
-nice lighting
-sleep
-having a young looking face
-water
-plants
-flowers
-community
-learning
-reading
-new experiences
-smiling
-laughing
-kindness
-my balcony
-remembering pleasant memories
-nightskies
-the air getting cleaner from the lockdowns

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-h cat now being in my posession, found, and has been to vet and doing all i can to heal him. he looks better then this morning and i am so grateful to God for bring H cat to us, and able to get him to the vet
-learning
-tapering off my anxiety meds. finally making the decision and doing it. going back on a simpler antidepressant
-physical exercise
-the taste of sweets
-the power of love
-my voice on audio recordings seeming to help H cat
-people who are being there for me through the hardships i've had lately
-taking things a little at a time
-taking risks
-finding a loose little dog, and bringing it to my house after not being able to find where it lives, and having it reunited with it's owners within a few hours
-deciding to buy a rainbow bridge pop up card after finding out the woman across the street from me's dog had passed on after an incident i was somewhat witness to. I thought her dog was fine but her husband or boyfriend told me and M the dog ended up dying. I felt so bad and inclined to get her the card which should arrive soon.
-blankets
-clean clothes
-showering
-brushing my hair
-compliments
-being smart
-caring people
-deleting all my phone numbers except for very few such as essential numbers
-beautiful weather
-music
-relief
-saying how i feel sometimes
-having a caring heart
-nightskies
-finding a stain remover finally that works on mustard.
-getting some refunds on things i never got or that didn't work out well
-calmness
-colors
-being there for others
-cuddling
-my pink heart shaped rose quartz
-taking breaks
-naps
-prayer
-my rose face spray

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-h cat's teeth looking less yellow now
-h cat curling up in a ball and letting me hold in my arms while we lay down and rest, and he has his arm around me
-h cat drinking water(that i dosed with lysine) for almost a full minute today. The first time i seen him do that on his own since i've been nursing him
-h cat letting out a nice relaxed looking yawn when i went to go check on him last
-getting my stimulus check
-music
-entertainment
-my rose face mist
-tapering off my anxiety med dose and being on a simpler antidepressant now
-self forgiveness
-doing a little workout
-the new vet we took h cat to
-h cat's eyes clearing up from the mucus for the most part and being able to see his beautiful eyes
-my conviction
-taking risks
-sweet beverages
-natural healing
-beautiful weather
-M's husband being there for H cat and helping him
-stretches
-coffee
-the internet
-research
-socks
-blankets
-seeing some little signs of normalcy and the country reopening
-being an independent thinker
-looking young
-being smart
-the power of love
-feeling my feelings
-working on organizing my bed and closet
-my femininity
-touch
-hope
-kindness
-finding a little dog loose the other day and bringing it home with me and being able to find it's owners within a few hours
-getting a beautiful rainbow bridge card for a neighbor who's dog had passed on a few weeks ago that i found out about
-comedy
-laughing at life
-fashion
-getting an appt for lip injections for next month
-getting another credit card payment deferred
-trying to live a heart-centered existence
-my taste in things and cleverness
-cleaning products
-my pink prada sunglasses

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-looking younger lately
-hearing things about the country possibly re-opening
-my new givenchy pink slides
-banana twinkies
-smiling
-being youthful
-being able to think for myself
-heart-warming animal stories
-having great style
-H cat eating and drinking again and having more energy and his eyes looking less red
-cuteness
-love
-how friendly the neighborhood seemed when i went for a walk yesterday and the neighbor i gave a card to who's dog had passed on thanking me and introducing me to her new dog
-art
-music
-fashion
-focusing more on fitness and self-care
-feeling my feelings
-great design
-showering
-my banana scented leave in conditioner spray
-apple cider vinegar
-being smart
-beauty
-being productive
-beautiful weather yesterday
-walking
-kindness
-entertainment
-cleaning
-having a sense of humor
-having great hair
-having goals
-inspiration
-trees
-colors
-blankets
-buying some great deals from the maker of botox that was on sale

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-entertainment
-inspiration
-keeping my mind strong
-H cat feeling less bony and having more energy and playing a little
-my time freeze peptide water sleeping mask
-my lips being more moisturized today
-my burberry sweats
-ab exercises
-naps
-detoxing
-being smart
-being mature
-my skin looking glowy and young lately
-art
-physical exercise
-doing laundry
-how healthy my hair is
-going with m's husband for drive and to pick up some stuff
-being happy for others
-blankets
-beauty
-my internet
-hot guys
-compassion
-sir kensington chipotle fabanaise
-coffee
-banana twinkies
-brushing my hair
-my sense of style