GRATITUDE LIST

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-losing weight
-having a beautiful face
-sleep
-xanax
-coffee
-going to the office today
-my hair color
-makeup
-getting a fast food vegan meal for lunch
-seeing my ferals today and H cat looking good
-finding out M's husband has been taking care of another cat
-putting on a cbd skincare face mask for 15 minutes
-forgiveness
-coloring in my positive affirmations coloring book
-kindness
-being stylish
-my burberry hoodie
-wearing heels today
-music
-baby wipes
-setting positive intentions
-prayer
-ibuprofen
-feeling stronger
-good news
-motivation
-determination
-candy
-water
-sunshine
-plants

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-D and i being back to normal, or at least the way we were a little over two weeks ago
-seeing how i detached from negative feelings and thoughts and certain perceptions before all of a sudden an event brought us together and him initiating talking with me and us making up
-face rolling
-my hair
-getting back more into my self-empowerment
-music
-spending more time at the gym lately
-the new lingerie i got the other day
-doing my multi-acid peel on my neck, chest and hands
-my new acupressure mat
-xanax
-water
-hibiscus tea
-fashion
-my sense of style
-working the other day and running into an old friend and having fun chatting with her and she gave me a ride home
-the slight chill in the air
-slippers
-having a beautiful face
-being high status
-the vegan fast food meal i ordered for dinner
-rum
-having nice lips
-cleaning
-my neon heart lamp
-self-care
-cozy clothes
-little luxuries
-the text D sent me the night we made up saying he felt happy when he looked up and saw me

[buttercup]

-my acupressure mat
-water
-seeing the money on the card for the injectables i need to get
-my beauty
-my stomach getting more sculpted
-going to the gym tonight
-feeling more self-empowerment
-hot guys
-makeup
-coffee
-getting my burger king vegan meal for dinner and a salad
-being a kind person
-fashion
-getting garbage bags today
-listening to third eye chakra music tonight
-sleep
-ferrum phossum tissue salts
-cuteness
-love
-laughing
-my unemployment not getting deducted
-my little heater i put on tonight
-my fabric refresh spray
-my new hermes lipstick
-being smart
-being talented
-my body getting smaller
-blankets
-my phone
-animal activists, advocates and those who do work to help animals

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-chocolate
-salad
-vegan food
-good deals
-ferrum phossum tissue salts
-going to target with m and m today
-doing a skincare face mask
-my bed of nails
-feeling my feelings and letting myself process
-healthy digestion
-water
-D being chivalrous last night. Now, a few hours ago i've ended things though which im sad about
-fashion and style
-showering
-coffee
-clean clothes
-being smart
-art
-my little heater
-pillows
-blankets
-my givenchy teddy bear
-fabric refresh spray
-self compassion
-getting fillers and botox the other day
-cats
-having beautiful eyes
-baby wipes
-self reassurances

[buttercup]

-water
-coffee
-delivery services
-going to the gym today
-self compassion
-doing a lavender epsom salt foot bath
-my acupressure mat
-my hair cooling nice
-my chest looking nice
-my arms getting more toned
-xanax
-rum
-fashion and style
-finally finding a bath mat i like
-baby wipes
-sleep
-great deals
-those who help and fight for animals
-not drinking soda yesterday
-makeup
-my lower body getting more toned
-seeing cute and interesting things
-having nice lips
-being strong
-ferrum phossum tissue salts
-showering
-having great curves
-music
-cuteness
-being unique
-seeing my swarovski crystal order shipped
-being a kind person

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-breaking my block with D after a fight with M's husband where he was awful to me and i wanted to feel better and like i had a friend
-hibiscus tea
-going to the gym today
-how great my hair looks
-D bringing up my mail yesterday for me
-makeup
-my acupressure mat
-trying new things
-coffee
-my new gold colored face mask coming in the mail
-my crystal cup arriving soon
-water
-xanax
-sleep
-ibuprofen
-being smart
-my beauty
-my arms getting more toned
-applying for an event today
-tampons
-fabric refresh spray
-being a nice person
-hope

[buttercup]

-sleep
-romance
-my pink neon heart lamp
-hope
-getting my beautiful crystal chanel inspired cup in the mail today
-my acupressure mat
-coffee
-eating some carrots today
-cleaning
-doing some spiritual work with crown chakra music and setting some intentions
-being pretty
-my hair
-having beautiful eyes
-my side of my hips and thighs looking more toned and smooth
-makeup
-showering
-resolving things with M's husband
-my balcony
-night skies
-taking the garbage out
-submitting for some work
-taking some of the election judge training
-updating my resume
-purple toning shampoos and conditioners
-prayer
-calmness
-blankets
-water
-those who fight for animals
-self compassion
-mobile editing apps
-pretty things
-being smart
-pleasant memories

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-that at least D getting so angry at me and jealous and freaking out shows he cares a lot more then he lets on like i often thought
-at least D said his feelings of anger instead of not communicating it
-that D said we can be cool with each other
-finding out P likes me a lot and talking on the phone for hours the other night
-compliments
-P saying im not an object but a diamond
-my body looking smaller
-my clothes looking nicer on me
-my arms looking smaller, and more toned
-being a loving person
-my abs getting more sculpted
-eating more vegetables
-coffee
-skipping meals some days
-xanax
-having beautiful eyes
-going to yoga class tonight
-cleaning some things
-acid beauty solutions
-being smart
-being creative
-spices
-trying a new vegan food product and loving it
-my venus dimples
-my beauty
-sleep
-smiling
-cuteness
-self compassion
-my beautiful crystal chanel mug
-talking with my psychiatrist today
-feeling calmer about my living situation since researching tenant rights in my city, and ♥♥♥♥♥ protections as well, and looking at my lease
-my new hyaluronic acid i use
-ideas

[buttercup]

-having nice cleavage
-my hair color that accidentally turned darker then expected growing on me
-being very physically attractive
-my feminine energy
-trying to be productive
-beauty
-beautiful things
-laughing
-music
-getting the song i like cut to the part i want for my ringtone
-going to the gym today
-anxiety medication to calm me down
-my starbucks vanilla bean drink i had today
-seeing D really did have some kinds of feelings for me to get the way he did
-my acupressure mat
-me realizing some changes i want to make such as long no longer crazy shaming myself, not letting neighbors bother me anymore, doing more things to empower myself, working on career more, becoming a smidge more quieter, smarter, and just a lot of reflecting lately over all
-hot guys
-fashion
-having beautiful lips
-organizing some papers
-my new pink glitter folder
-doing a little reading
-water
-skincare face masks
-being a kind person
-the little heater in my living room
-newness
-rearranging things
-learning casual polish speaking on the app i've been using
-my venus dimples
-having a nice lower body
-my prada candy night perfume
-doing love meditations lately as a spirituality challenge
-meditating and getting new ideas
-chemistry feelings with a guy you like
-how beautiful trees are
-love
-prayer
-deciding i want to become more intellectual
-pictures
-new experiences
-colors
-being an interesting person
-new affirmations i'm using
-blankets
-lint rollers
-fabric refresh spray
-great design
-great lighting
-spices

[buttercup]

-techno music
-discovering new music
-getting new ideas
-utilizing my resources
-being smart
-coffee
-cats
-seeing my feral cats yesterday
-prayer
-halloween candy
-having a feeling D may be checking on me
-reassurances
-romance
-potatoes
-lint brushes
-changing and evolving
-knowing how to use my oven now
-sleep
-my acupressure mat
-fashion
-the nail stickers i got the other day
-doing laundry
-sweeping the bathroom floor
-talking to M's husband on the phone today
-baby wipes
-showering
-motivation
-working on improving myself
-learning casual polish language
-pillows
-blankets
-sunshine
-colors
-inspiration
-entertainment
-doing some stretches and toning exercise
-trying to see the fun and joy in things
-my beauty
-having nice lips
-having nice eyes
-good skincare products
-my femininity
-nightskies
-coming back to myself
-fabric refresh spray
-innovation
-learning
-hope
-trying to get centered and grounded