GRATITUDE LIST

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-staying strong through the catastrophes
-getting my red-light wand in the mail
-doing affirmations today in the mirror
-watching movies
-wearing my new coat
-cleaning products
-nighttime walks
-realizing during emotional breakdowns there's good in there to come back to
-having nice hair
-clean sheets
-orange juice
-fasting some days
-being smart
-art
-style
-seeing m's husband with M again
-having ideas
-my mind being more clear, coherent
-taking less then half the anxiety medicine I did in the past
-my femininity
-finding grace in being humbled
-handling things maturely
-cute decorations
-hugging cats
-having compassion
-toner
-brushing my hair
-having goals
-playing with the cats earlier
-trying new things
-oneness
-spirituality
-following ones bliss
-music
-being attractive
-working on the basic pillars of peace and success

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-acknowledging my stress and anxiety levels
-being protected from any petty stuff from ex j and his wife happening
-my new coat
-my red light therapy wand
-sleep
-being proactive
-my little heater
-ordering garbage bags
-ordering cat litter
-the friendly neighbor chatting with me recently who likes my cats
-my sense of style
-brushing my hair
-bring 99% sure I found out who sent me prank the prank calls in july
-klonopin
-semi detoxing from anxiety meds and cosmetic injections
-working out my body
-sending out emails for work
-blankets
-watching movies, TV shows, documentaries
-having great taste
-having a plan
-the feeling of clean clothes
-talking to my cats
-my determination levels rising
-hot beverages
-music
-finding special old messages between r and I and the irony reading them and processing the specialness that was there
-when my clothes feel looser
-my hair color
-looking so young
-being beautiful
-working on bettering myself as a person
-bread
-something to grow from
-humility
-that my ex j's wife took down her pinned post with awful things about from being pinned
-staying strong
-being smart
-perspective
-drinking water
-paper towels
-baby wipes

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-ideas
-plans
-showering
-lights
-blankets
-water
-orange juice
-sleep
-motivating myself
-hope
-my red light therapy wand
-going through the past to remember peace, success and happiness
-hot tea
-destressing and decompressing techniques
-patience
-getting strict with myself on some things
-the litter heater
-cuteness
-b cat having such fluffy thick fur
-playing with the cats
-trying to be real with myself
-great design
-garbage bags
-sweeping
-prayer
-detoxing from cosmetic injections and anxiety medication
-my face skim feeling tighter
-compassion for myself
-learning new things
-working on becoming a better person
-fashion
-becoming more coherent
-sweaters
-style
-being smart

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-seeing my check will be $100 higher than expected
-finding the name of the number of who prank called me
-not being served legal papers from having to do with ex's wife and him, etc
-Chakra music
-red light therapy
-my skin looking so good and being incredibly smooth from red light therapy
-mood lifts from red light therapy
-hummus
-taking the cats out to experience the snow
-how pretty snow is
-how cute paw prints are
-watching movies
-blankets
-restful naps
-the boys loving the cat toys I got then
-my new coat
-my fashion sense
-hot beverages
-starting a digital vision board
-taking the garbage out
-looking for apartments online
-gold sharpie marker
-having nice curves
-compassion for self
-looking back on positive things to remember
-being smart
-drinking water
-joggers
-beautiful things
-feeling investment minded and focused on rebuilding
-reflection
-self forgiveness
-having a nice hair color
-not being afraid to take risks
-looking young
-when people show they care for me
-bread
-recertifying for my free internet
-getting positive responses from 2 agencies I emailed
-trying to eat less
-feeling in a bit of a good mood at random the last few days
-remembering my spiritual roots
-having desires
-listening to beach sounds the other day to decompress
-cats
-healing my inner demons
-wanting to focus on my health and recovery

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-restful sleep
-Journaling
-healing
-self awareness
-forgiving myself
-learning things about why I've felt the way I do
-being considered attractive
-not letting myself be silenced
-finding out if j's wife isn't lying I should have been served long ago in October and that it doesn't add up, and just seems like its fake. The court date is in a few days if what she posted isn't fake.
-prayer
-affirmations
-the catnip ball I got for my cats
-making the decision I did to detox from anxiety medication
-making the decision to detox from cosmetic injections
-fashion
-wanting to live a cleaner life
-motivation levels shooting up a little
-being somewhat cultured
-treating myself to two pieces of 7eleven pizza last night for dinner
-eating less
-M helping me
-blankets
-cleam socks
-friendly people
-baby wipes
-having goals
-relaxing beach sounds audio
-being more coherent
-Chakra music
-feelings tinges of more aliveness
-beauty
-appreciation
-the love I have for others
-fantasizing about what I want to manifest
-remembering positive memories and gorgeous details of them
-feeling like I'm getting my power back, it's going to come back
-being strong
-color
-having an artist mindset
-having great taste
-how beautiful the sky is
-compliments
-detoxing
-the power of appreciating the little things
-entertainment
-cuteness
-helping
-compassion for self
-my creativity
-decluttering
-humility
-entertainment
-flowers
-art
-growing as a person
-my accomplishments
-the cool things I've experienced in life
-being classy
-clothes feeling looser
-having a caring heart
-my hair color
-looking like a model
-my versace bright crystal perfume
-garbage bags to throw garbage out
-my beauty
-my femininity

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-the detox from my hospital stay
-feeling increased clarity after my hospital stay and peace
-M's husband watching my cats while I was at hospital
-tension breaking between me and M's husband showing he may see me soon
-food at hospital getting a little better
-losing weight
-sleep
-Ativan
-being brilliantly savage when needed
-my creativity
-seeing more truth of how much j's wife isn't stable and their lying
-having compassion
-being smart
-getting my long awaited check
-putting money aside for new place
-lighting
-showers
-socks
-red light therapy
-watching movies
-feeling ambitious and inspired to move toward goal
-how peaceful the rain was the other night
-prayer
-not being served legal papers from anything with J and his wife
-savoring the moments
-staying positive
-music
-feeling more feelings of aliveness
-beauty
-smiling
-baby wipes
-clorox wipes
-playing and cuddling with cats
-ideas
-fashion
-blankets
-my femininity
-eating less and appetite shrinking
-sunshine
-nightskies
-colors
-my abs flattening
-dental floss

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-getting prescribed weight loss medicine
-sleep
-my cat being in a calendar
-my new pusheen socks
-compliments
-movies
-starting my plan for getting money to move
-seeing my feral cats
-h cat being healed of his sniffling issues and getting antibiotics and bloodwork and sleeping on the front porch of m's husband's house with heat for 2 weeks
-babywipes
-playing with ai app and seeing my beauty in interesting ways
-having model like features
-cold water to drink
-vegan food
-blankets
-holding my cats
-taking p cat on a walk and him doing very well
-feeling my feelings
-cashapp
-great ideas
-reassurances
-cleaning my freezer
-gratitude
-enjoyment
-peace
-positive memories
-bras
-kind people
-plasma donating experience at new place going well
-being smart
-rest
-clean clothes
-newness
-being cultured
-having goals
-being kind
-unique beauty
-prayer
-positive intentions and affirmations
-learning
-reflecting
-colors
-inspiration
-lysol
-clean teeth
-beauty

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-starting donating plasma at new place and how easy it is and nicer there
-lysol spray
-a good therapy session the other day
-starbucks
-my new pusheen socks
-great design
-beauty
-unique beauty
-hugging my cats
-playing with ai app the other day
-sleep
-compliments
-looking like a model
-pep talks
-inspiration
-fashion
-elevating myself
-realizing I'm not crazy and ex and his wife are below my level playing below my level games and jealous
-having a warm apartment
-vegan food
-blankets
-cuteness
-positive affirmations
-having money
-staying strong
-looking for joy
-people being kind
-looking back to my roots
-my accomplishments
-being able to think for myself
-having compassion
-having a phone
-being a kind person
-having things to be able to be proud of myself for

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-clean socks
-patience
-being at 20% of what I need to move financially
-sleep
-movies
-entertainment
-friendly people
-blankets
-drinking water
-reassurances
-my cats
-mirror affirmations
-watching movies
-positive stories
-staying strong
-my red light therapy wand
-my givenchy bear
-joggers
-cat hugs
-being smart
-doing my part to make things better

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-drinking water
-warmth
-recovering old pictures including a specific one I had been seeking which felt like a positive sign from the universe
-having lived a full life
-getting a stylish tote bag free with a shirt I bought
-my mom telling me she bought something she's been telling me she wanted ever since I was little so I'm happy she manifested that
-trying to penny pinch
-friendly people
-cleaning the litter box
-my beauty and realizing in hindsight just how exotic it is and how perfect my curves were and how thin I actually was
-preparing myself to just go for it and not make it a big deal about going to see my cats because they're mine too and feeling like this is somehow a key to freedom to peace and joy in my life in so many other ways
-finding some great stickers for cards I wanted to send out for the holidays the other day
-movies
-moisturizers
-my givenchy bear and laying with it in bed
-feeling my feelings and allowing myself to feel the heartbreak
-my ex and his wife possibly giving up on their petty revenge on me and seeing its a loss for them as his wife now unpinned the tweet she had about it
-appreciation
-fashion
-sleep
-having an interview for work
-when p cat lays by me
-lysol spray
-mirror affirmations
-that my parents seem to be doing well
-making my cats happy
-beauty
-having great taste
-my child like side