GRATITUDE LIST

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-getting a massage today
-getting tension released from my neck from the massage
-my eyes
-my strength
-the cats that come to the yard
-a nice meditation session today
-ashwagandha
-having a young looking face
-makeup
-coffee
-blankets
-having a moment of prescence and reflection while at the yoga studio in a trendy item i had wanted before and reflecting on manifestation of being in that moment
-the yin yoga session i did tonight and how good that felt
-getting more things organized
-ginger candies
-vegan pizzas
-becoming interested in eating cleaner again
-inspired ideas
-M giving me money since i have to find my own way to work tomorrow
-waking up earlier
-that my mom wants to see me on my birthday
-my beauty
-newness
-positive transformation and learning and growing
-deep cleansing breaths
-the universe and God
-prayer
-chakra solfeggios and theta musics
-headphones
-that business partner is going to pay for our business cards
-doing a little reading today

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-going to work today
-doing another anxiety challenge and mastering this step that i've been working on. today was an uber to my job.
-uber just happening to have that sale this week
-taking a yoga class today
-vegan food
-yoga and how much more into i havebeen becoming lately
-the sun
-my sunglasses
-craving eating cleaner
-tea
-water
-ice
-ginger candy
-the moon
-nightskies
-inspiring someone today on the uber ride who cried and says she never does that while on the job and said she loves me and that i'm angel when i gave her some important words she needed to hear without meaning to
-goals and inspiration
-compliments
-my strength
-people saying happy birthday to me
-my femininity
-earning money
-deep cleansing breaths
-chakra solfeggio and thetas musics
-thoughtful touches M sometimes has such as bringing me protein today in my mason jar when just the night before she asked why do i have them and i said because i used to use them in my apartment for protein drinks,fruit smoothies,and lemon water and loved them in the mason jars and her waiting to go to bed until i got out of shower just to tell me the washer is now free since she knew i was waiting to use it,and then waking up to see she switched my clothes into the dryer for me.

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-deep cleansing breaths
-ashwagandha
-cats
-yoga
-coffee
-M taking me shopping and to dinner yesterday
-vegan food
-the sun
-cupcakes
-feeling drawn to give up soda soon and like it'd be good for me and actually very easy to do
-having money
-getting what i want
-fashion
-my style
-my dentist appointment coming up soon
-my new desk in my room
-my bed
-my pillows
-my laptop im using
-naps
-people seeming excited by my presence and wondering where i had been at my last yoga class
-my beauty
-yoga pants
-ice cold water
-tea
-no work tomorrow or for the next few days
-cool new things to try
-reflective meditative insights
-chakra solfeggios and theta musics
-friendly people
-appreciation
-seeing everything works out
-meeting my goals
-donkey kicks exercises
-walking
-becoming more competant with things related to my anxiety and the sense of pride it makes me feel
-feeling secure
-feeling abundant
-ginger candies

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-new clothes and makeup
-getting more things organized
-techno music
-getting some work done today
-ice cubes
-water
-my new desk
-sleep
-naps
-cats
-my caring heart
-my beauty
-looking like a model
-getting a follow up on a free hair color appointment
-yoga
-yoga pants
-sweets
-great deals
-vitamins
-my meds
-finding things i was looking for
-becoming more confident in my competency
-coffee
-healthy digestion
-meditation
-the mirror in my room
-getting room cleaned and bed in a new spot yesterday
-mouthwash
-vegan food
-getting a lot done today
-no work tomorrow
-another anxiety challenge or two to do this week
-that this month has been smoother then last month so far
-summer time
-night skies
-ideas
-eye massage
-my phone
-my phone charger
-pillows
-fashion
-relaxation
-shopping
-breaks
-feeling my feelings
-nurturing
-gratitude
-learning
-being smart

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-yoga
-weight going down today
-soda pop
-deep cleansing breaths
-water
-ice cubes
-getting my glasses today finally and how great it feels
-doing my anxiety challenge today and how well it went
-getting a ride home from dad's house today which was so great
-great deals
-my brother's cat and how sweet he is
-compassion
-getting a response for a haircut
-my new desk
-yoga pants
-socks
-goals
-getting products for that time of the month bought for me
-my cheekbones
-having a nice glow to my skin
-my beauty
-being smart
-lavender
-having a good day today
-how great's my 2nd business's website is looking and getting excited for doing that work again
-my poise
-practicing the art of slowing down
-contentment
-music

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-deciding to let go of control a little and become a little more detached
-looking good
-my cheekbones
-my style
-fashion
-my big(for me) decision to give up soda starting next week since my intuiton has beentelling me it's literally the main thing that keeps my diet from being clean and giving that up would heal/detox and connect the dots for everything else with my diet goals,as if the soda is the last thing that really needs to be done(and had been the thing i was most resistant and yet now it feels so easy)and will help all the other parts come together more easily by doing that
-water
-ice cubes
-consideration
-rest
-M's friend from the gym giving me a birthday card
-tea
-lavender
-makeup
-my new eyeglasses
-my weight going down and seeing meds definitely weren't affecting weight
-meditation
-buying myself a cool peacock eyepillow from etsy last night
-staying in the moment and surrendering
-getting things organized
-getting a lot done
-great music
-having a sexy body
-the nightlight in my room
-my awesome new desk
-scalp massage
-jaw exercises
-changing my profile picture on my main email account after realizing the picture could symbolize disconnection and I've had it for a few years and have felt more disconnected the last few years and want something more cheery
-the amazing vegan burrito i had today
-socks
-gratitude
-that this month is more in flow then the last month
-yin yoga

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-the really hot guy from about a month ago at the yoga studio coming by and flirting with me. At first he waved then came in looking for my boss and i suspected he must like her and just let go,a bit disappointed and then he came back for one of the services and after talked with me for a few minutes and seemed to be flirting and also like he came out of his service early to talk with me.i got the vibe he did like my boss but avoided talking about her and said twice two things about how things are great now,and now summer is great as if he was referring to me. it was subtle but something about him just keeps me thinking about him every time i see him. i blushed and was fidgety during the chatting. he asked again about when i'm there and even seemed to remember my name when he had come back. he said he forgot,and asked me to repeat it but before he did he said the first part of it.which is remembering far better then me.
-feeling relaxed
-coffee
-my meds
-being on day one of taking one day off per week of drinking soda
-rest
-my book i've been reading growing on me and even somehow making me emotional
-yin yoga,which i swear seems to be making me slightly more in the flow with things since doing it the last few days
-surrender
-water
-ice cubes
-weight going down
-my beauty
-fashion
-having a nice body
-ashwagandha
-lavender
-tea
-cats
-my kind heart
-M's husband getting out of work early and picking me up on time
-getting more job offers today
-a beautiful new photo from recent job
-makeup
-getting cover of recent project chosen and how stunning it is
-my mandala coloring book
-getting a first draft done on new article i'm working on
-my femininity
-learning again how often i'm wrong when i assume the worst
-newness
-the new people i've been meeting lately
-ideas
-goals
-my ambition
-my favorite italian sunglasses
-security
-abundance
-letting go
-beauty

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-carrots
-mustard
-coffee
-cats
-being flirted with
-M buying me mini cupcakes that were so good at the mall
-M buying me new heels i was wanting and yoga pants at the mall today
-feeling attractive
-ashwagandha
-laughing at life
-my style
-seeing how when i surrender and stay open,how well things really flow
-yoga and going to yoga class today
-sleep
-rest
-the hot guy from the other day being on my mind
-great idea to save money more efficiently that i've started implementing
-movies
-beauty
-beautiful models with great looks
-seeing cool products at a new store i checked out today
-transformation
-my new eyeglasses
-letting go a little
-deep cleansing breaths
-relaxation
-water
-soda
-my bed
-eye exercises
-meditation
-prayer
-things started to feel easier and in the flow again
-looking like a model
-ahimsa
-newness
-tension with M seeming to be gone
-my meds i take
-fashion
-feeling comfortable and secure
-feeling abundant

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-water
-ice cubes
-going another day this week without soda,unintentionally,and deciding to surrender to it,since my aim is to no longer be the girl who drinks soda and now deciding to go one day a week without soda instead of two.thus far,in that one day the other day,i felt cleaner and my teeth felt cleaner despite still eating other sweets and drinking coffee,and my stomach possibly was flatter too. I have been feeling like my higher self is nudging me to let go of the soda habit and with all of the other new changes i'm making right now in my life,this feels very right.
-watching a movie
-laughter
-throat chakra solfeggios
-writing out my goals and ideas tonight
-sangria sorbet i got today. so good.
-my meds
-sleep
-rest
-cats
-meditation
-surrender
-relaxation
-letting go
-feeling secure
-feeling abundant
-comfort
-getting positive attention from the opposite sex whenever i'm introduced or out and about
-deep cleansing breaths
-M being nicer to me lately
-the hot guy from the other day
-stretches
-ginger candy
-beauty
-great deals
-being cute
-great weather today
-my favorite sunglasses
-the fan in my room

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-little reconnection things and seeing people from primary career years ago still doing cool things which is inspiring and affirming
-being able to drink soda today.i really am addicted.i felt such a need for it today,and after felt a certain satiation from it as if it was addicting. however,i'm currently going two days a week without it and it's fine.
-sleep
-naps
-getting an amazing massage today. the masseuse did such a good job. got the kinks out of my neck and even went longer then the time paid for.
-the champagne with my massage.i think with my living situation now,i enjoy alcohol even more since it's like a little rebellion,and makes me feel young and free to have something even say the word alcohol in it,or have a smidge of alcohol in it's contents. the champagne was great,and very relaxing. it was my first time drinking a full serving of alcohol in months. i felt it a little more then usual either because it's been so long,or because of the meds,but at least now i know,too i can handle one glass of champagne with the meds
-a mini driving lesson in a parking lot to refresh since it's been a while since practicing. there's nothing but myself holding me back now from taking the test since i now have the glasses.i think it's been adequate studying and practice time,too and i feel ready so after a few more refresh lessons,i am going to take the test. it actually feels time. wow. while writing this is the first time,i felt that for the driving liscense.
-deep cleansing breaths
-socks
-feeling relaxed
-ordering a diffuser i've wanted for awhile for myself last night
-my eyeglasses
-cats
-having a young looking face
-M's husband waking me up so i didn't miss my appointment today
-my style
-yoga pants
-going in the grocery store alone yesterday before M came in while she wrote her things down from her class and how i'm getting more competant and capable with the little anxiety inducing things
-editing some pics i got to my liking and making them look before then how they were edited.
-my beauty
-my jobs and what i do as careers
-feeling peaceful
-lavender
-stretches
-yin yoga
-insect repellant
-surrender
-meditation
-prayer
-water
-ice cubes
-my meds
-that my weight went down