GRATITUDE LIST

[dontco]

Dedicated to Buttercup, with love! x

[buttercup]

Dedicated to Buttercup, with love! x

Thank you. Will check this out.

[buttercup]

-flowers
-water
-healthy digestion
-accomplishing new anxiety challenge of taking train to work today
-my job at the yoga studio
-my boss at the yoga studio
-smiling
-a good journaling session today
-sunshine
-coffee
-bringing the cats that like indoors,indoor for awhile on this frigid day
-opening up crawlspace for outdoor cats and adding a cushion in there and some cat food
-having a kind heart
-M speaking to me
-crown and root chakra musics and theta beats playlist
-calmness
-doing some reading today
-the holidays being over
-yoga

[buttercup]

-deciding to quit soda. after now being up to two bottles a day,and noticing a stomach that just won't go away since around then,i just feel it's time. it's the best grown up diet change i can make.
-meditating. after feeling cranky and bummed,it boosted my mood quite a bit
-prayer
-my peacock print eyepillow
-lemon bars
-gratitude
-yoga
-water
-my medications
-waking up earlier lately
-2nd chakra solfeggio frequencies
-chatting with someone from my past who mysteriously added me on facebook last night
-sleeping with the kittens all night and morning and deciding to start leaving them in more
-makeup
-deciding to donate to R from my past's family's gofundme page. it just felt right to do. i felt so bad about the tragedy he is currently going through.i have never donated to a gofundme before as i tend to not believe in that for the most part.
-the little heater in my room
-my bed
-\being a kind person
-finding out product i was waiting for will be here next week. it wasn't on the list like they thought,so they resent it and sent me the tracking number
-friend inviting me out for lunch
-my career status
-people believing in me being able to do big things

[buttercup]

-sleep
-naps
-my meds i'm on
-poetry in my heart
-s kitten looking better today
-music
-the internet
-good food
-orange juice
-calmness
-mood being better today
-keeping the kittens in the house longer
-essential oils
-getting package from pr today and how nice it was
-weather being warmer today
-kindness
-cuteness
-going back to my roots a bit in some ways and how exciting it is
-daydreaming
-yoga
-shoulder stretches
-physical exercise
-doing some positive focusing
-remembering happy moments and accomplishments
-doing more organizing and cleaning
-fashion
-dental floss
-water
-sitting on the porch for a minute or two just enjoying the nighttime
-laughing and laughing at life
-feeling excitement,gratitude,and presence even if just for one moment
-appreciation

[buttercup]

-being in a better mood the last few days
-S kitten looking more better today
-having the kittens in my room and how easy it's been.
-a guy who was a bit of a person to me that as an "idol" or inspiration messaging me randomly and sending me a message saying he has interest in me. like,this s--- is crazy and proves to me the universe is strange and loa is real. i had felt like i wished there was a guy in my city like him and found him very inspiring and connected with his materials and now he sends me this message two years later.
-water
-having a protein shake today. banana flavored and adding a dash of cayenne pepper.
-having friend A from my past to talk to online the last days
-bringing a humidifier in the room
-coffee
-my perfumes i got in the mail
-sleep
-the little heater in my room
-weight going down and stomach looking nice and flat
-doing a little reading
-eating a lot less lately
-having therapy tommorow
-signs work is about to start picking up again
-my phone
-the internet
-physical exercise
-my ivory colored sweater i've been wearing lately
-my hair
-my beauty
-compliments
-my creativity
-my kind heart
-my bed
-learning
-surrender and letting go
-my vibe having raised a little bit
-laughing
-finding a really good uber deal package i bought
-feeling like the universe is on my side sometimes,and the loa at work
-dental floss
-cat hugs and cuddles

[buttercup]

ah,how has this happened. literally a guy two years ago,i thought would be great to date if only he was in my city,and now here we are randomly having conversations,all iniated by him,and finding actual connection in the messages. this is crazy.
-the conversations ive been having with L. he is actually i think semi-famous. him contacting me and seeming to really like me for some reason. this is insane.
-my medications
-feeling so upbeat the last few days
-going to therapy today
-all the activity on my social media the last day or so.
-the kittens in my room and all the adorable awesome things they do
-sleep
-yoga
-orange juice
-having a skinny stomach
-meditation
-my curves
-following an inspiration for one of jobs i do and iniating a new project for it
-the lock on my door
-a job offer today
-someone wanting to interview me for work tomorrow
-my beauty
-my hair
-how great my skin's been looking
-doing some mirror affirmations today
-dental floss
-the dimmer light in my room for when it gets later in the day
-the weather being nice today
-coffee
-sweaters
-fashion
-feeling optimistic about the future and having a little direction
-water
-the universe seeming to be on my side
-laughing

[buttercup]

-feeling my feelings
-getting my laptop charger in the mail today
-getting my yoga blocks today
-my medications
-the conversations with L and that he contacted me even at all,he really made me feel something i'm not sure i've ever felt before. i can't quite put my finger on it.
-water
-bananas
-weather being warmer
-cats
-s kitten's health looking better
-my bed
-feeling mostly pretty upbeat this last week or so
-yoga
-my beauty
-my potential
-reflections
-how joyful it's been to reflect on my past lately
-the powerful journaling sessions i've been having
-laughing
-nightskies
-feeling more moved on from tragedy of last year
-meditating today
-calmness
-doing some reading
-sugar
-deep cleansing breaths
-getting more things organized
-great ideas
-cleaning more,getting walls cleaned up
-music
-my phone
-having a loving heart
-inspiration
-how much L and the surreal experience of him having contacting me and also all the reconnecting with my past has really inspired me
-my nightcreams
-surrendering

[buttercup]

-my white sweater i've been wearing a lot lately. i love how it looks on me.
-my vibration being pretty up the last week or two
-cats and all the adorable things they do
-water
-hot tea
-hazelnut coffee
-meditation
-motivation
-compliments
-prayer
-affirmations
-my peacock print eye pillow
-being told i'm thin
-laughing
-music
-yoga
-yoga pants
-deep cleansing breaths
-calmness
-my medications
-entertainment
-dreams and wishes
-feeling like maybe i could have love again
-my abs looking nicer lately
-confirming a job today so i'll be able to meet my january goals when i thought i wouldn't and exceed them plus the experience it'll give me
-blankets
-sleep
-ordering the next book i plan on reading
-getting an appointment for S kitten from the volunteer who helps us sometimes
-starting the new year off not too bad,and interestingly
-appreciation
-starting the new year off with connection which is my main intention for the new year so already off to a good start. i can't wait to keep it up. it's changed me already.
-starting to remember the feeling of life being magical and dreams coming true again
-having a nice chest
-my body starting to feel stronger
-feeling like things are starting to become easier and tensions starting to sail away

[buttercup]

so much has happened already this year and this year has barely started. today was a devastating day. lost S kitten. on our way to clinic,her and her brother jumped out of the carrier in front of it,and we only managed to catch one with the help of staff. luckily,we have lots of animal advocates who are helping us look,posting flyers online and on the block last seen,and giving us ideas.i am staying confident we will find her. i miss her so much.
-all the people who helped us find T kitten and try to find S kitten.
-the people who have faith we will find S kitten.
-that on the block S kitten was last seen,there was people who leave food and shelter out for ferals,so it seems to be an animal friendly area.
-that T kitten is now fixed at least
-managing to calm myself down after being treated badly all day by various people and having a kitten i love become missing,and having to miss work
-optimism
-sleep
-coffee
-M bringing me food for dinner
-prayer
-God
-laughing. the cats did something so funny,that even on an awful day like this i couldn't help but smile.i was in the bathroom and suddenly hear the music M's wife usually plays when making playlists for her classes. i knew no one was here,so open the door and sure enough T kitten is sitting in the computer chair sitting in front of the computer where the music was coming from,i'm guessing bemused where the sound came from.i made a joke that i guess the cats wanted to party(i had two other cats in the house,too).
-sweaters
-ibuprofen
-finding out i dont have to file taxes this year