GRATITUDE LIST

[buttercup]

-self compassion
-self appreciation
-newness
-positive transformation
-inspiratons
-doing some writing down of my goals,to do-list and wants
-attempting to make calls i needed to get done
-orange flavorings
-confiding
-getting a check in the mail. the first check since january. geez.
-buying the moisturizer i've been wanting to buy for awhile now
-buying the ysl lipstick i've had my eye on and seeing they offer complimentary custom engraving
-entertainment
-inderal
-art
-creativity
-music
-T kitten
-my outdoor cats
-getting another two flyers for T and S out
-sweaters
-fashion
-laying down
-stretches
-connection
-comfort
-nice weather
-H kitten being so cuddly and affectionate these days
-laughter and humor

[buttercup]

been feeling really burned out lately,i realized. today,i lifted myself more and have been feeling more decisive including deciding it's time to leave the yoga studio.
-following creative hunches lately and making decisions. i have had a hunch a few times that the scaffold in yard should be tore down and sure enough today,when tearing it apart,and cleaning it,i seen worms under some of the wet fabrics in there. ugh. i've been having dreams lately about the yoga studio and feeling like it's time to go,and today i finally decided i will. it may be in two weeks,it may be in two months,but the decision is made. i think i was a little sad about it at first.
-waking up a little earlier today
-getting caught up on phone calls today. thank god. been a big subconscious stressor.
-squats
-getting a referral for a gum surgeon from my insurance
-mischief
-having healthy teeth
-whole foods orangeade
-doing a no soda day today
-putting money in my savings and having a new short term savings goal. i've come to realize it's mood boosting putting money aside and having savings goals.
-having self appreciation for my body as is,even with flaws. felt strange yet authentic.
-my style
-sweaters
-newness
-deep cleansing breaths
-nice weather today
-sunshine
-spending more time outside
-having more time to bring T kitten inside
-having nice eyes
-feeling excited about the possibilities i can manifest via the law of attraction
-my stomach looking flat
-my body getting a little stronger again as i start exercising more again
-reflection
-quiet
-finding out R does have a gf and so that must be why he didn't really respond much when i sent him that message a few months back
-coffee
-that i think i actually have a new fashion writer for my business which is super exciting
-the art of allowing
-music
-art
-beauty
-having a nice nourishing meal.i made myself chickpeas curry and bread with himalyan pink salt ghee. was so good to eat something nourishing since i've been eating not so great lately.
-positive changes and transformation
-positive self talk
-connection
-intrigue
-my phone
-updating my linkedin
-clorox wipes
-finding my favorite american apparel ruffled socks that had been missing for a few months

[buttercup]

-M's husband bringing in T kitten in my room yesterday morning
-spending a lot of time cuddling with T kitten yesterday
-pictures
-getting my ysl lipstick in the mail today
-cuteness
-style
-telling my boss my decision on being done with yoga studio and it going well
-my boss suggesting we add each to ig and inviting me to a women's creativity gathering she is hosting later in the month
-self compassion
-sunshine
-TV episodes online
-meds that calm me down and boost my mood
-deep cleansing breaths
-sleep
-having a fashion writer now
-having a fashion article done now for my business which is the first one since my partner left the project
-colors
-being able to see
-being attractive
-getting more work done on an article i'm working on
-water
-getting a journaling session done and how great that felt
-music
-my job at the yoga studio
-smiling and laughing at life. amusement
-pink frosting
-attractive guys
-that the weather is supposed to be nice this weekend
-uber
-feeling like my eyesight may have gotten better in the last months.i just realized i've had the compulsion to put my eyeglasses on a lot less often.
-relaxation
-doing a little reading today
-inspiration
-positive changes

[buttercup]

-orangeade vitamin water drink
-making a little more effort with my job today
-making a little more effort with life
-waking up early
-coffee
-getting a month of prescriptions to last me until my next doctor's appointment at the new place i'm going to try
-my style
-getting my moisturizer i've been wanting in the mail
-spending time with T kitten
-petting cats
-TV episodes online
-sweet soda
-trying to drink more water today
-stretches
-weird little experiences of meeting a girl on uber who had gone through recent breakup and the uber driver who had written a book on heartbreak who gave us her card and the girl wanting to exchange numbers with me.i honestly feel like i have weird experiences like this all the time.i had a feeling the day would be weird early in the day,too.
-sunshine
-nice weather today
-weight going down
-organizing,cleaning,decluttering
-coffee meeting going well yesterday
-the mango smoothie i got yesterday
-the person at coffee meeting also having a missing cat experience with her grandmother's cat and she also had contacted a pet psychic. things like this happen to me all the time.
-deciding to do a little studying for next online computer course tonight
-contacting a few people socially in my phone today
-inspiration
-my prada candy perfume
-another uber fare package i was able to buy for lower then the last price which starts right after my last one ends so perfect timing. now i can uber around worry-free for the next month.
-laughing
-the internet
-the little gray marble print hats i got to match T kitten's fur and putting one on him today again to see how it looks.
-nonconformity
-entertainment
-ab exercises
-makeup artist confirming today for upcoming job
-listening to some root chakra music and theta musics playlist the other day
-colors
-buying some iron vitamins today after remembering that used to be a little help for giving me energy
-friendly people
-goals
-eyes
-seeing H kitten running up to me lately. it's so cute.
-deep cleansing breaths
-newness
-beauty
-mango lacroix
-connection
-learning
-healing

[buttercup]

-beautiful weather today
-sunshine
-nightskies
-deciding to meditate on the front porch at night tonight. i feel safer then i have there in a long time,if ever,which shows overcoming a lot of limiting beliefs about safety. i just let the night skies work on my pineal gland and enjoyed a nice casual meditation session
-not taking inderal today. weaning off that. it makes me too tired at the least. i felt more real today. it took a bit to wake myself up but once i did i could handle my anxieties and keep myself up while at my job
-TV episodes online
-fashion
-my leopard print cardigan
-having a good dream. this rarely ever happens.i was interviewing at a p.r firm and viewing all the offices. we all were supposed to test out each office to see how we liked it there. the dream kept having me go up higher and higher to each office.
-cats
-naps
-sweet soda
-getting a new phone today after phone cracked last night from dropping it very lightly.
-deep cleansing breaths
-friendly people
-allowing myself to have pretty things such as my teddy bear hairbrush,ysl lipstick,prada perfume,etc,etc
-nice design
-intrigue
-having some doritos today
-salt
-making a little effort with my job today and the difference that made. it's been hard with how i've been feeling,weak and apathetic.
-pictures
-colors
-being able to see
-flowers
-chlorophyll
-water
-stretches
-ab exercises
-creative concepts
-art
-the internet
-not having to work tomorrow
-coffee and my out coffee tasting better today
-wearing flip flops today for the first day of the season,and of the year
-feeling like my next travel i have to do is california
-dry mouth mouthwash.i actually find this works well
-california
-remembering the magic of the law of attraction and manifestation of desires
-massage
-relaxation
-pinterest
-emojis
-soothing self talk
-laughing
-my eye color
-helping others
-being smart
-physical exercise

[dontco]

Wanted to let you know that I replied to your thread on the "Out Of Topic" section
Have a magical day! or- better yet- fill it with the magic of gratitude yourself...

[buttercup]

-being more productive and waking up earlier today. what a mood boost that is.
-hummus
-lemonade
-doing a no soda day today and feeling ready for 3 days a week of it.
-la croix
-laying down
-insurance saying they will preauthorize the gum surgery i need for an out of network provider for me.
-the magic of life. i'm trying to feel more connected to it.
-T kitten trying to climb up me this morning when i went out to see him. so cute.
-patience
-coffee
-the interesting selections at the grocery store today,the random ethnic varieties of things they had.
-being able to read
-drinking more water today
-TV episodes online
-playing with "i believe" my favorite affirmation.
-backbends and how strong they make me feel.
-a meetup i might go to this week since it's right after work and near it
-seeing a workshop that seemed interesting that i might go to this month and that it's free
-beauty
-the uber fare package i bought for the month. so nice.
-my new phone
-having an antidepressant i'm on now and feeling like it's helping me to maintain some stability/calm in my mind
-blankets
-nice weather today. it felt so lucid.
-having an exciting,positive knowing feeling last night of feeling like certain areas of life that felt blocked feeling ready to be opened
-the solar plexus/theta musics playlist i'm listening to
-the creative hunch i had for upcoming job to use a fake flower for a prop instead of real,that it actually fits my concept way more...and also will happen to be a lot cheaper too which is nice.
-style
-great design
-calmness
-my body feeling a little stronger from using it a little more
-yoga
-my eyesight
-getting more studying done for computer skill learning course i am on
-deep cleansing breaths
-headphones
-getting table in my room cleaned off and organized
-having a kind heart
-having strong,healthy teeth
-colorful,fun things
-having nice lips
-colors
-creativity
-fashion
-ideas
-twitter
-my dolce&gabbana sunglasses case
-instagram
-being able to wear flip flops and letting my feet relax
-realness
-kind people
-my outdoor cats
-creative ideas and creative hunches
-my beauty
-more jobs i was able to apply to today
-patterns
-touch
-being smart

[buttercup]

been feeling a lot of heart chakra pain and frustration lately along with apathy. i think i need to just go out socially.
-sleep
-rest
-ibuprofen
-music
-doing my dishes
-fashion
-pictures
-pinterest
-music
-feeling so creative lately
-my outdoor cats
-being able to see
-softening my perspectives
-healing
-that it's springtime
-doing more studying today
-making a to do list before bed last night
-cleaning my bed and room
-watching TV episodes online
-physical exercise
-starting to feel slight short bursts of excitement lately about life,it's possibilities,and past happy things.i think i'm in a realization phase.
-feeling more like myself since being off antipsychotics. i never want to be on one again.
-getting out of the house for a bit today to pick up prop i needed for upcoming project im doing
-laughing
-looking like a model
-self compassion
-relaxation
-sweet soda
-ashwagandha
-hot guys
-prints
-cuteness
-my sense of style
-those that have appreciated me
-unique beauty
-seeing the law of attraction at work
-compassion
-my vibration rising a little bit lately
-deep cleansing breaths
-having things i want to do
-opportunities
-hip openers
-my body feeling better since exercising more again
-beauty

[buttercup]

-relaxing music
-chlorophyll
-ashwagandha
-my body feeling stronger
-feeling more attractive
-sitting outside for a couple minutes a few minutes ago and how amazing it felt. i felt that inner excitement again.
-nightskies
-inspiration
-twitter
-deep cleansing breaths
-dry mouth mouthwash
-my idea i had to get a refill for the antidepressant that i want without going to the doctor since i dont want to wait a month to be on it
-the word believe
-self appreciation
-positive inner knowings
-seeing my outdoor cats play
-nice weather
-my sparkly avant-garde looking zara sweater
-creativity
-being smart
-booking TWO upcoming travels
-cleaning my room
-doing my dishes
-M's husband giving me $20
-getting all caught up on emails
-watching some TV episodes online
-mustard. so random yet so tasty.
-getting the next certificate i've been studying for the last few days
-M's friend D texting me. It was a very sweet text.
-yoga
-physical exercise
-entertainment
-talking to my mom on the phone tonight
-getting an appointment for a dental cleaning done
-trying to keep my thoughts positive and aligned with what i want
-happy memories and reflecting
-the internet
-my dolce&gabbana sunglasses
-a friend texting me an invite to something
-feeling more like myself again
-being off antipsychotics
-finding norpramin in my drawer and taking that today since i cant keep taking remeron. i know i'm not supposed to be doing the med situation like this but for now i have to.
-the camera quality in my phone being higher
-thinking i looked cute in some pics i took of myself today
-getting excited about work,and being social and life in general again.i feel like this way blocked while on antipsychotics. everything just felt whatever.i also feel less "odd."
-smiling
-my child-like side
-seeing a new black cat with white on it coming to the yard. he is friendly and looks well kept so i am guessing he has a house family. now that i think of it,it mostly seems like my outdoor cats only ever have problems with cats that are other ferals.
-seeing W cat and dad cat sitting on neighbors porch chair today. so cute.

[buttercup]

feeling crabby but then i realized,i only took 1/5 of one of the med's im using to keep stable until my ssri comes in,i'm on a no soda day,didn't sleep a full sleep,frustrated by how low my bank account is and my checks not coming,M has been being a jerk to me,it's understandable i feel a little crabby. i seen G again today at work. i've been seeing him more again lately,looking more and more cozy with my boss each time which is all odd considering i'm almost done working there. it just all sort of feels like a story playing out and at this point i'm in sort of detach and observe mode waiting to see how it's all going to play out like i'm watching a movie and wanting to see how it's all going to end. the way it's playing out at this point,i literally feel like it's meant to tug at my attention,meant to show me the storybook nature of it all. it's just all really weird. makes me think of robert hopcke's book there are no accidents,one of the books that is a favorite of mine and a pivotal read for me. also,i feel like i'm becoming a hipster.

-accomplishing my goal on my to-do list of getting the online certificate i had been studying for.
-accomplishing my goal on my to do list of going to the meetup today. it was awful. everyone was older then me and 9-5 er types i could just not relate to but they were all nice and seemed super interested in me. at least i was social and usually when i do something like this after a miss,i end up getting a hit the next time around doing something like this.
-the pretzels and spiced carrots hummus dish i ordered today. the pretzels were amazing.
-the kentucky mule i ordered. this was really good.
-uber flat fare package pricing. gosh,i love this so much. it's created so much more calm and ease in my life.
-M being nicer to me this morning for some reason.
-heels
-amazing weather today. was so nice out.
-G from the yoga studio complimenting my hair today. he's like the only person since it's been colored who's commented on it.
-my phone and how high quality the camera is on it.
-vsco
-twitter
-facebook
-instagram
-catching up on some reading today
-being almost done with current article im working on
-water
-ashwagandha
-prada candy perfume
-sweaters
-leggings
-fashion
-being stylish
-being pretty and attractive
-having nice curves
-appreciating myself more on the new higher quality camera my phone has now
-my job tommorow
-makeup
-doing some journaling today
-kind-heartedness
-work people i communicated with in last 24 hours being helpful/working with me on things i brought up
-deep cleansing breaths
-my job at the yoga studio
-my boss at the yoga studio. going to my meetup made me more grateful for her since i vibe so well with her
-blankets
-trying to believe in things i want
-coffee
-chlorophyll
-hip openers
-physical exercise
-feeling excitement for life surges lately
-doing some research on upcoming trips
-new and innovative concepts
-hot guys
-animal lovers
-people somehow being inspired by me.i often feel invisible and awkward yet somehow i notice people pay a lot of attention to me or tell me how much they've inspired me while showing strong emotions in some form or another(crying,getting really excited and starting to take notes,etc,etc)
-the solar plexus and theta musics playlist i'm listening to
-coolness
-my teddybear hairbrush
-the industries i have worked in
-getting my power back
-empathy
-quiet
-inspiration
-unique beauty
-moving up to 3 days a week of no soda
-sending some emails out for 2nd business to get some things going with that
-touch
-clean clothes
-sleep
-reflection
-art
-happy memories
-decluttering
-having lived a pretty full life with lots of accomplishments,dreams come true,and ranges of incredible experiences
-newness
-forward movement