You are right ButterflyWoman/Darkchylde and It's helped me to remember the bright sides reading that. Those aspects are great. I guess I'm missing my kids a lot and the evenings seem to feel so empty. I go and watch tv in a bar sometimes or sit on wifi in a coffee shop but ..despite having a job and friends some days I haven't talked to anyone. I guess I could do volunteer work, join a church, something. I have meetup groups I go to. It's just all difficult sometimes. Thanks for the perspective, much appreciated.