Hello everyone. I am new to this, and until a few months ago hadnt even heard of Kundalini, until I started having all these mad experiences, like rushes, and someone said this is what might be happening. I have started mediation, excersing, writing my days positives, and eating healthy. This started as a very practical experience and has moved to something spiritual. The guy who has been helping me is actually a fitness coach, and it is almost like we are learning together. Hes not spiritual, a totall footy lad... So I was told by a friend it was probably an awakening. I have been trying to manage the feelings, which have almost felt like starting an intense orgasm, but not in a nice way. Not enjoyed the feeling.

Then someone who is actually a moderator on this forum offered some advice, To observe what happens without judgement... then on Saturday this happened to me...

I was just sitting in my kitchen and then this... this energy surrounds and enters me, thats what it felt like, and got uncontrollable rushes, basically I had a few orgasms but more internally, different, not sexual but also very sexual. then deep grief and sobbing, then rushes moving up my body, it was painful when it reached my neck and ears, and I HAD to breathe through it. then extreme gratitude and more sobbing,,, when I came too, it felt like that, it had been 10 minutes, but felt like some other weird time.

I am not sure what to do with this, whats next, and what it means. Any advice would be appreciated. Thank you very much