Hello.
Since this is the part of the forum I am most familiar with, I want to share a spot of trouble I had last night, so maybe you can help me explain it. I found it rather odd.
I was in bed, sleeping, in the middle of the night. I awoke and immediately found me in a strange situation - my heart was racing like wild. It was going really fast. My thoughts began to race, I was beginning to panic, as the thought struck me "Act now or this could become a heart attack", because I remembered something I read about energy work, that concentrating on the spot that was in agitation would only increase agitation. I was assuming I had too much energy in my heart, sending it pounding ever faster.
So before panic could take over and I lose control, I switched consciousness somewhere else, and finally in my feet. The beats began to slow down significantly. I closely monitored them, let them slow down, my panic began to subside, and somewhere I most have drifted off to sleep again.
Now, from my point of view, several things could have happened:
1) I had somehow fallen asleep with a focus on my chest region, or something similar with a relation to inducing too much energy into the chest region. Usually this could happen to me when I was doing sitting work and drifted off, but I didn't do energy work, I just went to sleep. Furthermore I had no physical problem or pain in the aftermath, it just went back to normal.
2) This is somehow related to the heart center, as referred to in RB's books, when he tells about OBE exit phenomena. I even thought about that afterward at that time, but I do not remember any other indication of a vibrational state or something. Just the rapid pounding.
3) It could have been a dream, but it felt vivid and real, I felt wide awake and clear, nothing suggested a dream to me. I even thought about whether I was dreaming this...
While I felt at panic, I felt no pain or other problems. My reaction was rather cool and calculated, and I overcame the panic quickly in order to do what I thought necessary to save my life.
I have as of yet not projected (except two inner projections with astral noise etc. in autumn 2005). I am currently neither trying to project nor doing any MAP practise, just daily Qigong, T'ai Chi and meditation. The only difference is a PM-discussion with Nnonnth that reinvigorated my interest in such matters during the last weeks.
My father died of a heart attack, so I am a bit worried. But he died because of malfunction - a blood vessel was blocked and the heart failed. This here seems to me - if it was physical at all - to be a completely different experience - overexcitement, not malfunction. I have no chest pains or reason to believe I am currently heart-sick, even though I am not the healthiest or healthiest-living person.
The fact that I was able to react so coolly gives me some sense of comfort about this. Especially since it was a controllable situation. I just want to know whether this is something I should worry about, or what it is? Does anyone of you have the slightest idea?
Thanks,
Oliver
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