It was back in 1999 that I was given Shaktipat, and it felt like waves of cold water going up my spine and down into my legs. It was like being in the ocean. It was not the traditional sort of fire and lightning and being knocked out of body and having visions that I was looking forward to. Since then, I have jumped at every chance to try to have something more like the traditional experience. It is only recently that I have been able to start to trust that I still had a valid Kundalini activation and that She has been continuing to make progress within my chakras and so on. The problem is that is still sometimes feels like my experience is less valid than other people's or that only the traditional experience complete with all the suffering afterward is real Kundalini. Any thoughts?