Originally Posted by
AllRealNumbers
I had a recent experience with kundalini about three weeks ago, and it was a mixture of pleasant and unpleasant aspects. I did feel my chakras opening and becoming connected - a physically blissful, almost orgasmic feeling - but I was quickly swamped by the overabundance of energy and it took its toll on my psychologically. I am bipolar, and while I have been very stable as of late, the awakening of kundalini sent me into a full-blown manic episode where I experienced paranoid delusions, anxiety, and inability to cope with daily stressors for about three days. I had to get psychiatric treatment for it, and it ended up wrecking my progress in school for the semester; i've had to withdraw from classes.
Also, the energetic fallout has its plusses and minuses as well. I feel "stuffed up" with a thick, gooey energy that refuses to leave my body. All I can do is push it around, and it prevents me from doing smooth energy work. However, when I do exercises like chi gong, I get very strong sensations of a *large* quantity of energy being present, even if it isn't flowing well. I am still bodily healthy and have a decent amount of physical vitality though, so I don't think my energy system is truly dysfunctional right now. It's basically just resting from a period of overwork. I think the obstructive energy is there as an innate defense mechanism to keep too much energy from entering my body now, and that it will dissipate as I get ready to accept a greater flow. I feel that it will probably work out for the best, although I will probably have to take about a year off from doing any real energy work in order to wait for the blockage to clear.
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