kundalini, psychic attack, or do I need a shrink???

[MD2BE]

Help, someone! I have been experiencing very negative things for the past 6 months. I am a medical student, and have been worked up by 2 doctors, about to see a third, maybe, to find what might be causing my symptoms listed below:

1. dizziness (all the time)
2. shortness of breath
3. sensations of choking
4. fever
5. weakness, numbness/tingling in hands, feet
6. achy muscles at neck and shoulders
7. feelings of fear, doom
8. digestion problems. e.g., eating less, no weight less, acid reflux
9. weird vibrations in left foot, like "trilling"
10. swollen left hand upon awaking

My internist feels that 1-3 and 7 are classic textbook panic attacks, which she says are common for med students around boards time. Her treatment? To "go to my happy place". The more I try deep breathing and relaxing, the worse it gets. Had an MRI done, it was normal. For 8, she tells me to stop caffeine and other acid-producing foods for the acid refux. Hard to do, but cut down to 1 cup coffee/day. Lately, I get mild diarrhea. For 5, she sent me to a rheumatologist because my labs came back with a positive ANA and elevated sedimentation rate, which points to lupus. High sed rates usually go with infection, but my white cell count not elevated for infection. Other labs all normal. I do not have the classic signs/symptoms, eg facial rash and joint pains, which tend to present first with lupus. I had more specific labs done and am waiting for those results. 9 and 10 started just 2 days ago. My internist wants me to see a neurologist next, plus mention of a psychiatrist. 4 just started 2 days ago as well.

My mood lately has been sour, and my studying has suffered. I have no interest in sex for past 2 months or so, very abnormal for me, and is causing big tensions with my spouse. I fear driving because of the dizziness. I feel like a dark heavy cloud is over me. I had to postpone my board exam date and clinical rotations in the hospital until this fall, was supposed to start this week. I get 7 hours of sleep, but always feel so tired and drained. I still do daily workouts, stretches and 20 minutes of walking on treadmill, but they don't seem to give me energy at all anymore. I looked these symptoms up on the web, and some of the hits I got back refer to psychic attack and kundalini syndrome. I am desperate for help, I just want to feel normal again! I have not been doing anything to bring this upon myself, like meditation, rituals, etc. I have a neighbor that is into these things, and I always thought she was a nice person, very interesting. Recently, though, she made a comment about another neighbor and I felt a flash of bad vibes from her. Can't explain it. My spouse made a comment recently that he feels she's jealous of me, but he couldn't explain that, and I find it weird, she usually seems so nice. Could this all be from her? All I have been doing is trying to balance family and school, and doing a good job until now, please help me understand this.

[Korpo]

Hello, MD2BE.

It is hard to say what is happening to you even if you spell it out so clearly and in full detail. Please keep on going down the medical route no matter what else you try to fix your condition, and keep checking with a medical practitioner you trust. But I do not think you need to be told that.

A lot of the conditions you describe sound like a psychosomatic cause. I mean, if for example 2 and 3 had no physical explanation, they could indicate psychic/emotional trouble. Neck and shoulders (6) are classical stress points, also digestion problems (8 ) often indicate fear and stress, and I think we don't need to talk about (7).

Therefore I think it could not hurt to see a psychotherapist or a hypnotherapist, simply to help with the soulsearching. As no obvious physical reason has been found yet, a psychic one might be the cause. If your intuition cannot (yet) guide you, the help of a professional can surely lead the way.

Also ask yourself - is your life lacking something? Is the material world and success in it enough for you? Shortly before my finals (computer science) when it became evident my "survival" would now be guaranteed, the spiritual interest reawoke in me - the need to go looking for answers and to complete me. I ended up with doing energy work and meditation and feeling better, sleeping better, and my job, while not unimportant, is no longer the focus of my life like I thought it would be. This is a good time to find out what makes your life complete, and a good therapist could be helpful here as well.

Unless you cannot pinpoint a psychic attack or an incident involving a neg it is not necessarily that. If you want to be sure, you can learn Robert's Core Image Removal technique and other things:

http://forums.astraldynamics.com/viewtopic.php?t=8158

While I cannot exclude it I'm not so sure about Kundalini - had any spectacular spiritual/mystical experiences that actually could be interpreted as Kundalini sensations?

Be well and take good care,
Oliver

[CFTraveler]

I second what Korpo wrote. Unfortunately, as you aptly put it, your symptoms are consistent with panic attack, and your neurological symptoms sound like something physical.
If utilizing psychic countermeasures give you comfort, such as shielding, for example, or core image removal, then by all means apply them; however please continue the medical route, and by all means let us know how you do with your practice. We'll be rooting for you!

[MD2BE]

Thank you, Korpo and CFT, I appreciate the replies. Meanwhile, I spoke to a friend of my mom's, who is from a family of "roots women", who gave me instructions involving salt and candles. This is to help me feel better, she said. Will do! I really hope it stops the dizzies, weakies, choking feeling and foot buzzing--feels like a live bee is trapped in there! She said she did not believe it is an attack, but rather, a wake-up call from my own subconscious. This echos what you mentioned, Korpo and CFT. I have put lot of weight on this exam, because those scores determine my professional future, so basically, I have just let life go on by. Well, to that, I just feel like if this is meant to make me stop and smell the roses---it's working! I checked out those links, great information there. Will definitely post updates. Thanks again

[MD2BE]

Oh, forgot to address the kundalini syndrome sensations, saw a list on the web, and the foot sensations, weakness, fever without apparent illness and anxiety were on the list. And wouldn't you know it, I can't find that site with the list As far as psychic things, nada. Guess that rules out KS?

[DAN]

Does the choking feeling feel more like the wind pipe being choked more than the whole throat?

Dan

[MD2BE]

Wow...I am amazed! I did that salt and candles trick yesterday, and I am pleased to report that it worked, I feel normal again! I can't believe it. No dizzies, no foot buzzing, no fever, aches, all that, just gone. I feel new and shiny, and it seems absurd to think I felt feelings of doom at all. I suppose it was all in my head afterall. I'll still see that neurologist, though. But what's weird, I had a dream last night, that I begged this man who looked like my husband but really wasn't, to chop off my left foot with a machete. I begged and begged and finally he turned to do it and I woke up. I can't remember the last time I remembered a dream! It was so realistic. Won't stress on it though. For now, I just want to get out and have fun, then get back to my studies.

DAN, the choking was when I would try to swallow. It felt like my entire throat was closing up. not just the windpipe. It made me gag, for about 2-3 seconds only, and was accompanied with fainting feelings. I have never fainted with these attacks, but it just felt like I would, and the fear was, if I do pass out, I won't ever come out of it.

[CFTraveler]

Well, I'm glad we could help.

[ButterflyWoman]

Wow...I am amazed! I did that salt and candles trick yesterday, and I am pleased to report that it worked, I feel normal again!

Can you tell us what you did?

[MD2BE]

Okay, all those symptoms I posted seem to have lifted, only to have acquired a new one--very vivid and disturbing dreams. Side effects? Last night, dreamt of walking along an ocean shore. There were lots of huge rocks and small wadepools, which I got very excited about. I wanted to get some samples from the wadepools to show my kids the life teeming in that water under the microscope. Just as I was about to collect some water, it all dried up, instantly. I looked up, and was face to face with this huge snake, hooded like a cobra. I had two thoughts going. The first was to not be afraid, that this snake had a message for me and to stay still and listen. The other, stronger thought was that the snake wanted to kill me and to run away fast. The snake began to appear more menacing, so I ran from it. As I ran, I couldn't help but feel that I made the wrong choice. Now, of all the nights of dreamless dreams, I get dreams like this. So strange. I read some things in passing about serpents and kundalini, so perhaps this was just the result of that?

OlderWiser, all I did the first day was take a shower with a bowl of distilled water mixed with honey, and scrub myself with the sea salt, then after, sprinkle sea salt in every corner of my house, starting with the east and going clockwise. I was given prayers to recite, and made a promise not to divulge them, sorry. Anyway, I swept all the salt out of the back of my house, then placed a large white candle in every room. She told me to get plain candles, but the only ones I could find were vanilla scented. Seems they worked fine, however, when I mentioned this to her afterwards, she got pretty adamant about them being non-scented, no explanation to that. Hey, whatever, it worked, was all my concern. IF those symptoms return, I'll order some non-scented ones and start over. I am on day 2 and so far, so good! An added plus: the scent of vanilla was a HUGE turn-on for me and my husband, enough said (I might add no sex until Sunday ) I have to do the prayers and salt scrub thing until Saturday. On Sunday I have to take the candles to the woods and bury them. I find this all very very interesting, and would like to learn more about it, but promised myself to wait for that until after the exam.