Originally Posted by
lilao
dear CFTraveler, thank you so much for the prayer. my freund was here last few hours and he said he will re-think everything and maybe come back. but I have to CHANGE urgently, not a single person would endure what he has to endure with me...
it started to happen a year ago, but i had NOT started any practice then. Quite to contrary, I stopped all my practices - prior to this i was a devotee of the COurse in Miracles and did a lot of self-clearing with Pilot book (scientology).
it all started as i allowed the fear of the future to be a constant component of my existence. and then my boyfriend become for me more important than anything, even more than connection to the God, and that what broke me. I have even difficulty to pray!
I started the meditations half a year ago, but the accidents started BEFORE my new regular meditation practice. still after meditations i have very crasy dreams and lately felt someone in a bed with me... it was weird...
i will not stop to the doctors - but my one year experiences were frustrating, no help from different changing antidepressants, either.
and i did tons of retrospection with the analyst and by myself - i know the reasons for my sickness but it helps no further.
At the same time, i am very sensitive to different energies and pains - i have read something about the "pain body" but did not ifnd any comprehensive staff on it.
i also tried several techniques described here - to find an inner healer, or Higher me or some spiritual guides - without any success.
i feel that I have ONLY pain body and nothing else... will chek the psd section (have no bath to try salts)...
thank you again. am pretty desperate at the moment.
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