No, thats not what I mean at all, everyone has thier own very unique and profound things they are enlightened to that I couldnt grasp. I dont want to go into depth because it would damage me, and this is something you can only learn on your own (as you said), Ive already been damaged. I only wanted to hint at it.

I spent all night last night worrying about this thread, I wanted it gone. I even tried to ask you to delete it and prayed nobody would read it, in all I slept about 2 hours. I made a big mistake trying to share this view, I suffered for it. This is why I havent left the confines of the dream forum till now. Hate me for pulling out if you like, I hold no resentment, but I dont want to harm people by telling more in my own words, when it should be in your own words.