Quote Originally Posted by OlderWiser
So, well, any clues, I'd appreciate right about now. Meditation isn't helping. Prayer isn't helping. Trying to be "positive" isn't helping (in fact, the block makes positive visualisation and positive thinking extremely difficult, which is why I need to get rid of it). How do you STOP believing something.... ?
Hello, OW.

IIRC the mode of meditation you follow is contemplation, where you allow thought to flow, right?

A technique that might be helpful is "Dissolving with an agenda", I try to describe it for you:

Underlying each emotion we have, each thought and each pattern in our ego is an energy, however subtle. Emotional body blocks get triggered and we automatically, as a matter of reflex, get trapped in the same patterns. The patterns repeat as long as these belief blocks are in place.

In my experience a lot of bad habits have to do with us avoiding a painful memory or experience and acting out a defensive pattern to avoid it again and again. Dissolving the pattern goes the opposite - focussing your intention where it does not want to go or stay. Strangely enough, this is all it takes, but we don't want to do it. And it is by no way easy.

So, what you could do is this:

Empty yourself. Try an exercise that helps you to get into a calm state, remove yourself and turn inward. Tune into your breath, your body, its energies, the present moment.

Turn into your heart. Your physical heart and/or your Middle Tantien, the seat of your emotional center and the Heart-Mind Hsin. Some perceive the energetic part as a vast sea of emotional energy. Some don't.

The present moment and the heart focus possess a special power in healing and unravelling. You remove yourself from the ramblings of your mind and tune into the now. Stay there if you want. This is in itself helpful and healing.

A next step could now be, while resting there, to formulate, clearly and unambiguously that you want to get rid off the problem, the belief. See if anything "turns up". Or try to actively "re-feel" the disturbing emotion, recreate it.

If you have grip on the emotion, the memory, the image, the belief, if you could re-create it, is there an energy you can feel associated with it? Is your mind automatically led to a certain spot in your body? Is there emotional energy flowing out, burning or contracting in your solarplexus or Middle Tantien?

Whether you feel a diffuse energy or a distinct, contracted block, gently steer your awareness towards it. Put your mind gently on it, don't push, but be aware of it and stay with it. I hope you are still minding your breath here? You might even be able to feel your breath entering and suffusing the blockage, which is helpful. Have the intent to make this energy flow again and dissipate, to let go of it, to make it go. Stay with it until this happens.

After the energy went fluid and dissipated or even vanished, try to stay in the spot it was in. If after some time nothing comes up, draw your awareness below your feet, ground your energy and start the process anew. But sometimes you find something beyond the space and emptiness you just created, a deeper issue. Do the same here. Or you feel a related block, close to it - follow the connection there and dissolve it, too. These unravelings follow certain patterns, so follow them to where they take you.

You may be flooded with memories, old feelings, thoughts during the release. Visually or as feelings. They are not important, only the energy behind them is relevant. If you are lost in this flood of sensations either return to where you were or ground and start anew.

If you feel mentally or emotionally fatigued, ground your energy below your feet and save it for another session.

This process works for all kinds of emotional and mental patterns, beliefs, thoughts, etc. It requires of you that you have a certain capability in focussing your awareness, and that you are willing to confront your problem/block even if uneasy sensations accompany it. This process is "designed" for all kinds of blocks in all your energy bodies. It is an enhanced version of our natural process of letting go.

See also here:

http://forums.astraldynamics.com/viewtopic.php?t=9353

Take good care,
Oliver