Hi, how are you doing? I meant to reply to your post earlier, but I couldn't get logged into the forum for some reason.

I'm a little unclear about your concern about kundalini, if it's thinking of raising there will be unpleasent twisting sensations of pressure (pain) near the tailbone. There will also be crawling, tinkling sensations sort of like electrical shocks in the lower back. If it's a full rising, there will be a extremely powerful, freight train like experince that will (usually) propell you into the divine presence were you become integrated with IT. I found that there was massive amounts of anxiety, fear and guilt when my kundalini first arose.

I agree with Oliver, dealing with the emotional stuff is more important, leave off with the energy work for now.

I hope things are getting better for you. Be well and many blessings.