I am beginning to think I am not crazy. Possessed or not, that is a different story...God be willing, for I have been on a faithful life path for the last 6 months, praying, fasting, going to church, reading daily, receiving blessings through the Priesthood, and even 2 exorcisms. Schizophrenia wise well let me add it up: I've never been remotely schizophrenic until I began this path. I can make the voices louder if I do my energy work. Before they turned ugly, they would still talk to me in a friendly way, for I was on a Godless/dark path at the time practicing magick (contrary to *MY* belief system)....
The whole time there and at home now I was being harassed every moment of the day like I am now.
I now realize something though. The voices I hear really correlate to the negative emotions I've experienced daily here in Oregon. I.e.:
"Go home right now": Wanting to leave Oregon right away. "I hate it here."
"Fag/homo/queer/etc": Fearing people see me that way. Wanting to prove myself by going out and scoring.
"Nerd.": Feeling guilty about gaining knowledge. Feeling like I don't fit in. etc
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