Frightening experiences, forced AP

One more thing...DO NOT PAY ANY PSYCHIC TO HELP YOU. Like I said this is not going to be instant cure. The psychics that charge money for help will say, "Give me $1000-3000 and I'll help you." They'll do their thing, it will chase the neg away,...and then the neg will come back. And then what? Another $1000-3000? And then what do you do when they come back again? It becomes more than that...it's like you become a drug addict and can't make it unless you give money to the psy for some self defense. You become intolerable of any discomfort, start seeing things externalized instead seeing the power within, and spend money to get rid of the neg causing the discomfort. But they always come back.

That is what happened to me...I was so far under the neg's control (as were the two daffy dimwits I was stuck with) I couldn't see how to get out, definitely wasn't thinking clearly or rationally. I lost my house and everything I owned.

I knew another guy who went $100,000 in debt trying to get rid of them.

Another woman I met was giving Nita tons of money (of course Nita will tell you she always asks, doesn't force anyone to give her cash,..and she makes fun of people who protest and makes them feel like they have no right to protest, how dare they after all). She lost all confidence in her internal power, didn't believe she could make it through on her own, I can pretty much guess that she was neglecting her family when her focus was entirely "I can't live with any pain I have to stop them." Last I heard the courts were threatening to take her children away over "something." I can wager several guesses.

God will help you do this yourself...He can't do it for you. Please try to believe.

Dante...I am getting better...I'm getting a lot better. I'm feeling emotional sensations and experiences I haven't felt in 10 years. Although I have used countermeasures and still do from time to time, what really did it for me was when my guides and the greys intervened just recently and helped me to feel my own value and worth in the universe. That's what gave my "No" real power. Oh, I'm not free yet, but I'm closer than I have ever been.

Being shown how loved I was, how much my feelings, including anger, were worth being validated because I was a valuable being and not shoved under a rug is what has put these cretins on the run...that had a more powerufl effect than incense (although I still light incense, I'm just not dependent on it).

Feeling the love the universe has for you in spite of the attacks is how this evil is stopped. Undoing the lies this evil tells you to try and convince you are not worthy of that love is also effective in stopping the attacks.

[Dante]

Thank you, Flew. Your responses were very thorough and supportive. I hope that maybe I can help you someday.

"It becomes more than that...it's like you become a drug addict and can't make it unless you give money to the psy for some self defense. You become intolerable of any discomfort, start seeing things externalized instead seeing the power within, and spend money to get rid of the neg causing the discomfort. But they always come back."
Those are some very wise words. I have felt that way when it comes to my pain and how I manage it. Painkillers can be a crutch and weaken your ability to withstand the pain on your own. I've had problems trusting my own ability to stop any attacks (if that's what it is) and if someone will help me. But I still feel some strength and I've had that reservoir of strength for a long time. A substantial number of my dreams were about slaying demons, and my own belief system and trust in myself helped those dreams to turn out the way they did. I still would like to see a psychic (for free), not to chase anything off, but to know what the situation is. A good portion of the fear is fear of the unknown. Knowledge is power.

Life can be difficult when you're going through a crisis and you can't find anyone who is going through the same thing. So reading your posts here is a big help to me. Reading posts online from people who don't believe these things exist, or have just never encountered them can make me feel alone. There are a lot of brave people out there who are able to brush these occurrences off. I hope that I gain the strength and wisdom to conquer my fear. I have certainly had a difficult life, but I have felt better in the past several months and have even tried conjuring up as much love in me as I could. Love is always good for something.

I know you've sensed a lot of things through reading your old posts. I'd like to know more details about your experiences: like what you've actually seen, whether on this plane or the next.

Those are some very wise words. I have felt that way when it comes to my pain and how I manage it. Painkillers can be a crutch and weaken your ability to withstand the pain on your own. I've had problems trusting my own ability to stop any attacks (if that's what it is) and if someone will help me.

They're going to play with that doubt and try to increase it...they're also going to try to make you feel extra special (I have a thread about that in the Possession and serious neg abuse thread) so you're not functioning correctly and more accepting of their crap.

Everything they try to threaten you with is a lie...I can tell you that from experience.

I had an experience during the download where I felt something very tall, large, and menacing trying desperately to get at me...literally it wanted to tear me apart and kill me. It was partially into me but not as far as it wanted. Then I felt another, LARGER presence with a sense of infinity. Then I heard a voice say, "Do you understand now? Do you see how large I am and how small you are? Do you know how much this entity would want to destroy you, but I will not allow it."

Because of free will, the attacks wouldn't stop, but they wouldn't go as far as this cretinous entity wanted.

I wish I could tell you that life will be nice and that this will all end...I have no right to do that. I can offer advice on how I dealt with things, CF and DAN can offer their advice on how they dealt with stuff...from that mixture, you can decide what is best for you. I am 10 years and my attacks are finally lessoning...but I didn't get a lot of support of help, so it doesn't have to be 10 years. I've met people who only suffered 6mo or a few months. Then I met people who have been suffering 20-40 years and still going. Each situation is different.

But I will say, I don't expect your No to drive them off the first time (but if it did, great). I say No and the meg only comes out partially...I still say No, I just don't let it frustrate me. I keep moving forward, gain some ground, and then say NO and GET OUT. It'll take time, but trust me they'll get it.