i will meditate for you also. i'm in a bit of a similar position as you are also i think. Re: Kunadlini , i also felt like mine was going to pop; i finally gave in and then the sensations stopped ... i kind of hope just until i can regain my own health, to deal with the potential risks of kundalini awakening.

but i will print out your picture and put it on my prayer wall in my meditation area