Yep... I seem to have done just that.
Working with NEW of course the idea is to fill your subnavel storage, which eventually overflows up into the heart center, and finally up into the brow. Once I really started focusing on doing this with the intent of learning to sense through my higher chakras, what came out was that most days, my subnavel was losing energy faster than I could ever hope to fill it. This was a longstanding issue, but the problem of how to keep more of my energy IN my body has been on the "stuff to fix" list for a while, with no real idea how to approach it. In the meantime I would just keep raising more energy -- enough to function on a day to day basis, but not enough to spare for upper chakra based pursuits. For instance I might get a lot done in a day, but "non-essentials" like dream recall would be getting cut way back.
When attempts to procure an etheric cork proved fruitless, after much pondering, and a tarot reading, I was pretty sure I had isolated the cause. It was a holdover set of beliefs from my early days of getting into things like energy work, "alternative" spirituality, metaphysics... but at a time when I didn't yet have any knowledge of things like parasitic people, negs or psychic self defense.
Back then the idea was that "all is one," energy is everywhere, energy is free. If I'm made up of particles and empty space, the guy next to me is made up of particles and empty space, and the only thing between us is particles and empty space... then we're all just points of consciousness swimming around in a sea of particles and empty space.
That's all well and good -- but my energetic system took all this and decided that "energy is free" meant "MY energy is free to anything that wants it," in effect making me a walking energetic buffet for any parasitic person or entity that happens along. This is, of course, not okay.
For the sake of my present experience, I'm living on a physical planet in a body that requires energy to function, and most of that energy has to be taken in via manual effort on my part. Maybe one day I'll gain the ability to bypass this illusion -- but I'd wager it's going to take a lot of that manually raised energy to get where I plan on going.
For the sake of my system I changed the way it was defining energy and my relation to it, to be more like the way I regard money. Basically, once it comes into my posession, its mine to redistribute as *I* see fit, and while I may choose to give it away, such as via healing, for someone or something else to take it without my consent is not okay. Energy is not actually free, in the sense that it costs time and effort to convert it for my own use.
Releasing those older beliefs and instilling my system with the new "operating procedures" I noticed a very significant and almost immediate difference. I have a lot more energy to work with now, things like dream recall and third eye visuals are going way up, and my system doesn't have the drain on itself that it once did. I am a happy horse.
Hopefully if anyone is struggling with a similar issue, this'll give ya some ideas. In general though I think the question of how we regard energy, our beliefs about it, and managing our own in an efficient and beneficial way, is an important set of topics to think about for anyone who's serious about regular energy work.
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