G'day,
I am sorry you are spiritually troubled.
My best advice is twofold.
Get a copy of my book, energy Work, and use its self healing methods, including energy work and affirmations. This will help engage your higher self in your healing.
I also suggest you go to Brazil and see John of God. I have sent many people there with similar problems and have had reports of good results.
See http://www.johnofgod-healing.com/
They also do some things from a distance.
robert
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