CF's dream diary

[CFTraveler]

2 dreams-
1-New birds: I was inside an empty storefront. I was inside it. I was 'done' with whatever I was supposed to do. All of a sudden I get a delivery. It's a very large cage with sickly and emaciated birds in it. There is water in an open dish, but it's dirty. There were packages of seeds (different kinds for the various species of birds. I felt despair, as I was done with the previous flock of birds, who had been nursed to health and had been released. One of the big birds was a peacock. I started to look for the seeds for it, and was thinking of opening the door of the locale to broadcast the seeds outside, so the peacock could eat from them (he was lively, unlike the other birds) outside while I looked for a hose to clean off the dirty water dish and give them fresh clean water to drink. I was trying to figure out the logistics of this (clean water first, then food, open the door, locate the food, etc.) when a man appeared. He was one of the ugliest men I have ever seen. There was nothing ugly about his features, they were almost feminine looking. Yet the whole package was chilling. He looked at me as if I were supposed to go with him. I felt dread, because I felt I needed to take care of the birds first, but he seemed impatient. I woke up, kind of not happy about this dream. I went back to bed.
2-Second dream: I was in an observatory. It was indoors with a dome. I wasn't sure if the dome was a clear ceiling that showed the actual stars and moon, or if it was a planetarium simulation. I looked at the moon, which immediately started to change, and looked from realistic to 'fakey' looking. It immediately 'unplugged' itself from the ceiling and fell to the ground in front of me. I then decided it was fake, but it then started to float up in a very organic way and instead of 'reattaching' itself in a mechanical way, it flew up in the sky and resumed its place. Then I realized it was real, and the sky was the sky. So then I looked more at the stars, and I noticed a couple of meteors streaking through the sky. I was amazed, and went to look for the people that run the place to ask questions, and found a couple of women in a back room. They were black and I think they were the same two women that visited me years ago before I got into metaphysics. I then woke up.

Note: On the day after the dream (the 30th) we went to a nighttime activity at the Zoo by my cousin's house and when I looked up, there was the 'almost' full moon in the same spot in the sky I had seen it in my dream. It was cool, because we had gone to see a light show and it was an added treat.
Will come back w. details.

[CFTraveler]

Night before last night (the 31st) had a keening experience of feeling the loss of my grandmother. In the dream I was crying because my grandmother was gone. I was crying, disconsolate. A group of people were laughing at me. I ignored them because I was immersed in my own emotion. One of them attacked me. Someone else defended me (physically) but they wanted me to stop. I couldn't, the immersion was too total. I woke up hearing myself crying, a keening that was coming from inside. As I awoke the feeling abated and went back into where it came from, and I was back to 'normal'. It was intense and baffling.
Last night I don't remember what I dreamt, got back home and just fell unconscious, literally.

[CFTraveler]

This past week I've had a few dreams that were symbolic. I didn't post them before because I thought they were personally symbolic, but decided to do it in retrospect, to record just in case they mean something.

New Year's day- I was walking around my cousin's house (I was sleeping there in PMR) and was looking at the back yard. It was full of garbage. I flew to the neighbor's house, and found out they had strewn it in her yard because they were trying to make them move, or some other form of sabotage. I told her. Woke up, her by looks nothing like the one in my dream.
I also dreaded that she bought two duplexes and put them together. Not sure what that means, if anything.

A few days ago, I dreamed that we moved to our old house while owning our present home, and simultaneously owning a house that has been in previous dreams but that I've never been to in PMR. I was angry that we were going backwards in terms of the space and lifestyle, and was worried about our pets. I'm not sure what the NP house is about, other than a symbolic future.

In the last few days things have happened with my grandmother, but they've not been dreams. Just recording it for chronology purposes.

[CFTraveler]

In the past two or three days (two at least) I've been woken up with the song in my head "Wake up, everybody. Join us in this Celebration"- an adaptation from an old Styx song. I don't listen to it and have no idea why I've been hearing this. At first I thought it had to do with the dream I was having, but I was actually having a nightmare when this song interrupted it and woke me up- in my head. This is a little weird.

The Original version: (the stanza I hear)
Light up everybody
Join us in this celebration
Light up and be happy
Sweet, sweet sounds will fill the air

My version says 'wake up' instead of 'light up'. I thought 'appropriate' the day before, today I thought 'WT...?'

[CFTraveler]

Last night there were lots of dreams, the two I remember better was one in which my mother, who looked like she was thirty, said something like 'you should have the house under the corporation, so that when the AC breaks you can afford to fix it'. I'm not sure what this means, I'm not sure I knew it in the dream either.
Later on there was a scene in which there were people around an ambulance, like a disaster, but there were people with rifles that were executing some survivors, because some 'had witnessed' something wrong. I was on a gurney playing dead, and had astral vision, so I could see when people would look at me, and I'd hold my breath for as long as they looked, and I'd breathe when they were looking elsewhere. At some point some lady was executed in front of me, and I tried not to react. Later on the real rescuers arrived and I got up and told them what I had seen.
There were other types of disaster dreams, I get the feeling it had to do with earthquakes, but it's pretty jumbled.

[PauliEffect]

That was a terrible dream. I guess I would see those events as symbolic
in some kind of way, but exactly how, would depend on the life
situation I would be in.

[CFTraveler]

That was a terrible dream. I guess I would see those events as symbolic
in some kind of way, but exactly how, would depend on the life
situation I would be in.

Welcome to my mind, lol.

[CFTraveler]

Various dreams, combined. My old job had been moved to where I grew up, and they had built the place in the same spot where my house was. So even though the place was new, it was where my house once was. I talked about this with my co-workers, but they kind of ignored me. Then I slipped into a recurring theme- I'm working on a piece of equipment given to me by my old boss. I find it and proceed to troubleshoot it. The scene melts into another, in which we are in some sort of carnival or park. The same people (coworkers) from the first scene are there, we are in some sort of a ride or float, and I see there is a man in the back which I had a restraining order against. This is a new element possibly related to a TV show I was watching. There is another woman that is either having trouble with him or is a self aspect (I believe at some point in the dream I am her, and am interacting with this man in some way. At some point my husband and son are in this part, but they are somehow separated from the action, as if they were in another section of the room. Some other stuff happens which I've forgotten and I wake. I look at the alarm clock and see I still have two minutes before it goes off, so I close my eyes and am immediately in a scene in which I can see a scene, and someone is telling me that this is a dictionary of nonphysical meanings to communications received from np characters.
I see the first page and in script it ways:
"Hanging Loose"~ And the description says that it means being dead. So in np slang, hanging loose means being dead, because they got loose of their physical bodies.
Then the alarm went off.
I wonder if I'm going to get 'a meaning a day'.

ps. The man in the dream isn't anyone I've ever seen, although he kind of resembles the actor Zachary Quinto. The boss is someone who exists in my past, but the coworkers and the man are not.

[CFTraveler]

A combo of dreams, may have been part of the same dream. First I was helping to move my mom from one apt. to another, cleaning up her stuff and moving it to another, and then we were in the new apt. helping her get acclimated. In the move I lost lucidity and started doing things in sleepwalking fashion and other characters (critical and in-charge characters) were introduced, and I kept trying to function, not well or lucidly. There was a back and forth between those dreams, but they were not clear.

[CFTraveler]

I had an extremely significant dream this morning and am writing this to see if I can draw it out. I remembered once more when I attempted to take a nap but it left my brain the second I woke up. I'm going to sit here until it comes back up.

Amazing. It came back.
I was back at the job I used to have (2 jobs ago, I've always considered the best job I ever had.) My old boss had me come in to see if I wanted to work there again.
I came into a dream environment that is recurrent- the shop, people working on equipment, etc. I took a piece of equipment and started to work on it. (still recurrent). The part it needed, when I went to look for it, was made from platinum and was very expensive. This made no sense, it seemed like a trick to make the product be too expensive to assure it wouldn't sell. I was having some doubts about this when it became very late, I realized I'd been there too long, and it was nighttime. Everyone was still sitting there working, as if this were normal. When I asked, they said the company had decided the workday was ten hours, and you had to stay there for so many more- some people were forced to live there. I thought this was very wrong so I started to walk around to look for my boss to tell him I wouldn't want to work for a company like that. When I was looking for his office, I got lost and ended up in the women's bathroom, except that it had been rebuilt to house closets and storage for the people that had to live there. I started to get nervous, realized I 'had seen too much' and started going up a ladder in this place which went up to a hatch of some sort. Then I saw some people that were trying to get out, and when they followed the exit signs they were directed to a 'false exit' - the hatches were sealed and people were forced to stay there. In the 'bathroom' there were couches and TV sets, people were expected to 'live' there. So I went back to where I was, and retraced my steps, and I saw my boss, and told him I had to think about it, and got out the door, the same door I had come in.

Now I get out, but I have no car and am not sure how to get back home. I see some sort of 'lark', those little vehicles that you ride on, but very slow- almost like a wheelchair. So I get on one of those and start driving away, get in the highway, scared but realizing I couldn't walk my way home, I didn't know where to go but on the highway they'd be roadsigns (it was nighttime, remember) so I get on, and see that a lot of people that had been riding the thing I'm riding have been killed by people in regular cars, and I see that some of them are running the people on larks over on purpose, because they go too slow. So I pull over and decide to walk on the side of the road, afraid that if I stay on the road I'll get run over, when I see two people in a car that work in this place (IRL they were coworkers of mine that stayed in the place I used to work in, even after they were bought out by another company) so I ask if could ride with them, and they acted weird- the man said they had to go back at a certain time but the woman (who I'm friends with) kind of let me know that they were escaping and had no plans to go back, and kind of convinced him to let me get in the car. I could see there was stuff in the car, like appliances or something, and I woke up. Not sure if I was going to get in the car or not.