Strange one this....

When I was about 7 or 8, this wonderful little person came into my life, he was my little cousin.

I held him in my arms, I looked at him, I LOVED him.

I knew, just knew then that what I was feeling, I would never feel for one of my own.

I am 28 now, and still dont have children, this feeling I had for my cousin has stayed with me, I still think that I wont have children, I have not actively avoided having children, and was with the same boyfriend for 4 years, without protection, I still have no children.

Since I was a little girl, I always wanted children, I think now perhaps that my path is elsewhere, I am able to spread positivity throughout my friends and have a very good way of inflicting positive mental attitude.

I would like to know however, what other people think of this situation.

I have not been tested to see if there is anything wrong in that department, as I find it easier to deal with thinking of my path as "elsewhere"

Recent tarot readings have confirmed that I am a lovely person, able to give light and sunshine to others and I find some comfort in that...