Hello, Alaskans.

Please describe by what you mean by "unstable." I'd like to know what you're actually struggling with.

I get that you struggle with the fact that you cannot bring through 100% of the truth and are disappointed by any amount distortion you put on it by expressing it. It seems like your recurrent response to this seems to be inaction, but given your dissatisfaction this cannot be the final answer or your would gladly stick with it.

So, what to do with your truth when it cannot be perfectly shared but wants to come out? What else could you do that lies between these two extremes - perfect truth sharing (unattainable) or withholding it (unsatisfactory)?

This might only demonstrate my lack of memory regarding what you wrote in the past, but have you ever considered art instead of writing as means of conveying truth? Have you considered music? I think you're a painter, right? How does the truth affect your art and does it help to express it?

Cheers,
Oliver