Yes I think I understand what you are saying...and I agree.
The fear I have felt all my life is to fear so bad that to evolve was no option for me...and I do think I know who has kept me in wrong fear...I have never bean interested to have power as Dart Wader type of power....and I have bean ready to give up my personal power and this is the area my higher self and God or the life essence to make me understand in right way...so that I was somekind of teacher in my last dream what I remember is that I shall share my knowledge and give hope to other´s to gaine self power in "right" way....I am not sure I will be right understood what I am trying to say here...because all is not total clear to me eigher -....yet....but I am working on it to share my knowing.
I did not dare to open my eye´s and see...so my first year´s I did live with litterally my eyes closed...and I did hear constantly....when do we get to see her eye´s....!!...I have bean so afraid that it is a miracle I dare to live