This morning I had some dreams...one was that I was sure I was out of my body and when I tried to go through a wall I hit my
face and teath against it and I had to admit...No I was not out of my body

In this episod I was to my old work place and I was so warmth welcomed by ex co-workers, I did love it...so I thanked for theire bothored to come and welcome me, I was not working on theire departement, so I asked how did they get to know I have started to work there, so one women said...through the salary office....One said...that he was not as he used to be, I answered..we all have changed, non of us are as we where before...Then a man did come and he wanted to say something to me...so I introused me to him...and he was from Finland and I asked from where, he did become funny and did not want to say...I noticed that his face was brown/red under his eyes and cheekbone area and nose...

In this episode I did see a man little bit over me as representing that he is higher developed....I did understand that I have send him away and at first I did be afraid that I have made a misstake but then he changed and all his glory and beauty was only a mask....now he did show him as he is....and I only felt pitty for him...I had liked him more if he had bean him self ...but to see all the theatre play he have put up against me...I am happy now to get to see what I felt and knew and did follow my guts....this too gives me self confidence.....

I did also understand that I have still a bit arogance to work away from my inner ....I do not need anymore that as I have used it as self defence...but I see it more deeply now and it is only arrognace......