I laud your progress, Volgerle, and thanks so much for posting this! The place you seek holds the very big rote of 'why' to love everyone unconditionally, it's an infinitely priceless attainment.

"If disciplined in the discipline of practice
Be one's mind, straying to no other object,
To the supreme divine Spirit,
He goes, son of Prtha, meditating thereon.

The ancient seer, the governor,
Finer than an atom - who meditates on Him,
The establisher of all, of unthinkable form,
Sun-colored, beyond darkness"

-Bhagavad Gita Ch VIII, Verses 8-9