Quote Originally Posted by eyeoneblack View Post
Let me see if I understand (likely I don't).

When a person 'draws a line in the sand', that means it is not to be crossed - it sets a limit. Are you saying or complaining that you do not have a 'line in the sand', that your eyes are closed so you set no limit.

I also wonder if you feel you go through life something like a secretary, disinterested, but taking notes for what goes on - like taking the minutes of a meeting?

I'm struggling here, but I think there is something important in your entry, and I'm sure I don't know what it is. )
Thank you for your questions, I will ponder on them and give you an answere later on, I can tell that much of my life is still so intimitating that I do not have the curage to look at it in the dept of it, I know I have many answeres but I am too afraid to look at it, when I do look I will know, but as long as I can hold it away from knowing I do not have to take the deep responsibillity what it feel´s it will pusch me into, this is a very frightening feeling, and it is why I do close my eyes as a little child hiding and hoping no-one will see me, I am struggling I can tell, but I will give you deeply answere but I have to collect strength, if you understand what I mean. I am much more bold to help others but when it comes to myself I am freakening out, it is an enigma to me also why it is like this, I am afraid to know, you know.

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