In last night Dream I did make an Telephone call to a professor in cancer. The hospital´s initials is HS and I did say mine name and I said...I have bean treated for several conditions and now I need to know what kind of tests I can tell my doctor to take so we can solve my issues....He took my birth date and social security numbers and he said he will look into it...but I awoke Before he did get back to me...so I have several questions...Do I identifye my HS as a male?? Do I know Deep down that I have cancer but it has not surfaced yet?? Do this mean I have to really really stop to limit my self by fear even I am still like paralysed by it, or is it only what I Think I am??..Maybe the old tracs are fooling me still?? and I have to give me more time to heal and grief??