what a day. slept so awful and felt detached and ambitious today but sleepy and overwhelmed. was the first day in some time i didn't feel an attachment to D and of wanting him to text or to text him
-coffee
-vodka
-coffee and vodka together
-getting more things picked up from the store
-getting new toilet lid and seat that had been needed for awhile since i had made a mess of getting beauty product all over it when doing a diy beauty project
-being young
-being crazy
-being high status
-my hair
-posting a new selfie today even though i felt nervous as part of my project to overcome insecurities and be more open and trusting of my beauty
-my sort of beat up,broken,vulnerable beauty look i seem to have
-my goals
-my desires
-my confidence boosting more and more
-getting jealous then deciding to feel inspired and determined from it and moving on quickly
-being ok with life craziness
-looking good with out makeup
-having model beauty
-getting my cardio in for the day and being ok with challenging myself
-the feeling of hope being alive and the feeling of who knows what could happen
-feeling very feminine and sexy and desired and having desires
-my feminine desires
-how defined my abs are looking and how quickly they are getting defined
-becoming more body confident
-feeling so detached from D today. It felt wonderful
-techno music and how focused it makes me for getting things done and how stylish it makes life feel
-pretty things
-inspiration
-yoga pants
-acknowledging the fears but not letting them win
-learning
-information coming available to excel and become better at careers
-business partner researching and planning on buying domain for our new second top secret business together
-things coming together
-talking with business partner today and telling her i miss her and i've been such a grouch today and us chatting about things
-things done well
-my talents
-knowing talented people and working with talented people
-protein rich foods
-having plans two weekends in a row i'm looking forward to
-sports bras
-style
-perspective