In last night Dream it was hard, because of the day Before what I wrote in this diary, to make friends with the past, so last night my second husband turned up in the Dream, and somehow I felt that he had taken my saying litterally. He was so sure we will be again together, I did not feel good about it and I said harsh to him.....but do you not ever Think I will be as I was last time, because you are not that easy to live with. He asked why not, I said because of your subborness, yes he said, I am stubborn, yes I said to your own good.
I do still have a very uncomfortable feeling, if I hade to return back to him, no way, I will die slowly in that kind of marriage.