-how funny life can be
-positive energy send to me
-my mind being quieter
-how much B has left my mind
-observing my thoughts and reality
-coffee
-almond milk
-music
-love
-inspiration
-all the inspiring moments and people and things in my life that i remember to inspire me to push it with creating my reality and trusting life
-how much quieter i feel with my mind becoming quiet
-the little bursts of my vibration raising i feel of my mind feeling good and happier
-new tank tops i got in the mail that are stylish and one is green so i finally have green i can wear on st.patricks day which i want to go out on since for years i've wanted to go out on st.patricks days and have yet to
-positive tarot reading before bed. i've cut back on doing those and it's helped a lot.
-doing really well with no contact
-mercury being direct
-high protein foods
-5 minutes an hour meditation sessions and how great they make me feel
-how much more detached i feel in comparison to just two days ago
-inspiration to live and better my life
-heat
-the sun
-snow melted off the balcony so i can go sit out there if i want
-a present for me
-expanding myself and growing as a person
-my strength
-instagram
-miracles
-compliments
-my open-mindedness
-checking in with myself to see how i'm feeling
-determination to keep up with the loa challenge. i've not gone full 24 hours with it,i'd have experienced many miraculous changes if i had but i keep picking myself up again at least and am not giving up
-sleeping better. B being in another dream of mine again. i dream of him almost everyday,it's odd.
-the sounds of the birds outside
-the sounds in the middle of the night of cars driving by and of the trains. it is so soothing
-examining my desires,examining me and who i am and where i'm going. i'm now convinced i'm going through some sort of purging and renewing of myself phase. B is unlike D. i know it in my heart. D intrigued me but i knew logically it couldn't work i just tried to enjoy the ride. B i can see logically working and fits all my desires of what i want. the issues we had i know could be worked through and aren't unfixable. his annoying traits,i more then likely could tolerate. and,as bad as it sounds,maybe it sounds "wrong" but i like the idea of making him better and him growing with me. i like it ALOT.i like the idea of no matter what happening,him remembering me fondly because he'd grow from me. my first boyfriend i made better because i taught him style and things. and,as you get older,you realize you don't need "perfect." An example if how exciting J was and fun but he is likely a sociopath and we burned out quick. B is more boring and not very smooth,but he is stable. minus his pushing me away right now,that is. he has qualities of someone i'd like to explore further. despite all that's happened and me detaching and realizing i don't "need" him,i do still want him. mercury is direct now,and i'm remembering his flaws,and he is still what i want. not just because my ego is hurt,not just to win,or anything like that,but because he qualities that make my life better and make me better,and i know in all my heart,ican make him better and his life better.i said that to him.that i could teach him things and he could teach me things. it'd be equal. there is no me being better then him if we were together.he was very insecure that night. mercury direct has brought me a lot more clarity and feeling more sane in my mind.i appreciate that.
-how into love and healing i am and how this shows in who i am as a person and my interests
-strength building exercises
-being feminine
-fitness