Am so sad,and crying again. My heart feels so empty. None of this feels real,and all I can say is i feel victim to imagining of others,by believing all these outside things had power over me.
-coffee
-my venus dimples
-that my brother cut his hair.i got proof today that he sent,and he donated his hair to charity. all this proves loa is always working and i feel is telling me not to give up. my flaw was i tried too hard and didn't surrender,and gave all this power to outside sources
-meditation
-taking some practice tests for driving online.i almost passed the first one,and i got some learning in from taking them
-sleep
-the book i've been re-reading that does actually say the perfect things i need to hear right now
-the laptop im using
-the knowing i have that i will never see R again.
-believing R and best are going to break up any moment now
-trying out the hair mask last night i got
-deciding to take the lesson that i had judged some things too harshly and to not do that in the future