GRATITUDE LIST

[buttercup]

-feeling better today
-sleep
-water
-going to a yoga class today
-spending some time sitting in the grass basking in the sun and how good that felt
-getting a latte today
-peanut butter and orange marmalade sandwiches
-lunch
-my new chanel lipgloss
-how beautiful my skin looks
--hyaluronic acid and vegan omegas
-umcka
-TV show episodes online i've been watching
-freedom
-my trip i'm taking in december,and how freaking excited i am for it. it's so nice life giving me what i want after feeling stuck for so long,then all the suffering
-reflections on R from back 13,14 years ago..i met him in the month of march. it all started recently with a prompt from my therapist about an assignment with him coming to mind,but i didn't really think much about him at all,then later while bored,i thought about him a bit,and lurked him on facebook. again,not unusual. i do this when bored. then,i had a random curiosity to add him. this was partially revenge and desire to savor my freedom.since then i've found myself thinking a lot about him,and myself back then,and those experiences we had. i am wondering if this was not a coincidence. after all,he was the guy i had liked right before i met ex best friend. if ex best friend and i had never met,would more have happened between me and R at some point? I can't help but think is a good chance that yes it's possible. the rift between my female best friend would've never happened,and it's more then likely i would've seen him again eventually. But,when i met ex best friend,all that changed. If ex best friend and i had broken up sooner,and left each other's lives,would me and R have encountered each other eventually and there been a reconciliation. The point is R,leaves off where I was before I met ex-best friend. And I can't help but wonder if my thoughts aren't random but perhaps,it's serendipity that i added him and now have been thinking about him. Maybe there's something i'm meant to heal. Meant to finish.
-dental floss
-being about 1/3 of the way there towards an item i'm saving up fot
-great uber deals
-finding an old branded tablecloth to give to the outdoor cats
-my beauty
-going to starbucks for a bit today
-fashion
-nightskies
-how happy it makes me to see the other new kitten's eyes all healed up and how beautiful she looks and her being so full of energy.
-comfort
-laughing
-learning