I have bean encurraged to write this....this "thing" or entity I have on my back...did decide to "protect" me...against it´s own species so to speak....He/she does feel born in wrong "family" like me...and it felt that I might understand it too...even it is against all common sense so to speak...I am Crying now because it does give me so much curage to go on with this telling even I know I take a huge risk....but it say´s it want reach the light...but he is bound to live in darkness...and it is crying to me to let it reach light.....If it is up to me to decided...of course I let it reach light...I want everyone to reach light and love.....I hope we both will reach light.

I am thinking about the nausea and dizzyness I feel if it is someone trying to help me get rid of it...and it does fight back and this causes nausea in me....and those who try to take it away is fighted back so bad so they think I am dangerous??..and it is this what make´s people think wrong about me becaue of this thing??....just a thought...but a strong one...