GRATITUDE LIST

[buttercup]

-coffee
-cookies
-skittles
-sportabras
-black leggings
-my sparkly socks from carbon 36
-acceptance
-m's husband helping me today
-people being nice to me
-beautiful pictures of me
-d being slightly more responsive in texts
-moisturizers
-cleaning
-clorox wipes
-my tramadol pain med
-deciding to switch to a new pharmacy
-being productive
-my pretty pink comforter
-feeling good
-relaxation
-my eyeglasses
-clarity
-snow being pretty
my gucci shopping bags. they are pretty.
-kindness
-people appreciating me
-working on marketing myself right now
-having beautiful eyes
-shampoo
-showers
-eyes
-being considered attractive by others
-trees
-cuteness
-my crown chakra englightenment spray
-fashion
-laughing
-sweet flavors
-having some purpose in my life
-newness
-being a creative
-art
-creativity
-expression
-my maturity
-my child like side
-stretches
-having a brain with which to think
-feelings
-hyaluronic acid
-my dreams coming true
-people thinking i'm cute and innocent seeming
-evolving
-the internet
-emojis
-my acquaintances
-my phone
-work about to pick up again
-my ambition
-being a nice person
-great design
-water
-slippers
-having faith
-prayer
-setting intentions

[buttercup]

-m's friend D taking me out to dinner last night and getting me a new year's card and gift
-music
-gin gins
-yoga pants
-my gucci purse
-the deep sleep i've been getting lately
-my beauty
-the tramadol pain med i've been taking
-my gucci purse
-my accomplishments
-seeing myself in a positive light
-rest
-being productive
-great skincare products
-the cosmetics procedures and treatments i've been doing
-relaxation
-coffee
-cuteness
-humor
-the key lime pie i had last night
-moisturizers
-socks
-hair ties
-showers
-water
-the internet
-empathy
-reorganizing my place and redecorating
-art
-creativity
-forgiveness
-softness
-my phone
-having acquaintances
-the guy who's been grooming me for court making me feel better about my case yesterday
-great design
-compliments
-having beautiful eyes
-sunshine
-daytime
-night skies
-trees
-blue skies
-having beautiful hair
-makeup
-looking very young
-my pink discover card
-m's husband coming by and fixing stuff in my apartment yesterday
-writing a positive review for a business yesterday
-getting my eyebrows threaded yesterday
-going grocery shopping yesterday
-the new white tea hand wash i bought yesterday
-stretches
-physical exercise
-buying a new book about trusting the universe and a humidifier this morning
-new ideas
-feeling calm
-working on self marketing and updating of online things
-hyaluronic acid
-smiling
-being smart
-being charming at times

[buttercup]

-my pain meds
-that time of the month products
-hair ties
-diet dr.pepper
-talking to m's husband on the phone this morning
-feminity and my own feminity
-getting a check yesterday and then 2 more deposited today
-getting on the list for a lawyer from the first place i wanted to get on the list from
-tank tops
-sweets
-beds
-blankets
-great skincare products
-showering
-doing laundry
-my panic attack last night leading me to a soothing clarity about another related aspect of what gave me the panic attack
-my beauty
-all my pretty things
-going for a short walk yesterday
-my comfy loose fit funky print purple pants
-slippers
-water
-innovation
-technology
-evolution
-being productive
-feeling good and calm mentally
-being a woman
-movement
-moisturizers
-my eyesight
-my eyeglasses
-reassurances
-rest
-massage
-being a nice person
-healing and changing perceptions
-physical exercise
-kindness
-listening to some theta music and root chakra music last night and how helpful that was
-how delicious the leftover pizza i ate last night for dinner was
-makeup
-how beautiful my eyes are
-calmness
-being charismatic
-appreciation
-seeing dad cat the other day
-organizing
-confirming 2 jobs this morning
-deep cleansing breaths
-my strength

[buttercup]

-feeling through my feelings(which right now is a lot of feeling dirty, confused, shock, fear, anger, hurt, lonely, etc) to get more groundedness, back to myself, and clarity
-chakra healing music
-headphones
-forgiveness
-going to therapy today
-clarity
-my strength
-colors
-empathy
-diet dr. pepper
-D for communicating with me today eloquently
-reflection and the strength to handle the questions i don't have the answer to
-going for a walk today
-pulling back
-intent to alter my personality and energy
-makeup
-my leopard print coat
-beautiful views
-imagining beautiful things clearly
-old ocd thoughts having healed now
-intent to look at my inner demons and dark side and see how i can better myself
-being a caring person
-being considered beautiful
-healthy digestion
-somehow managing on so little sleep the last days
-another realization/clarity during another panic attack last night
-fashion
-leggings
-having healthy
-working on making more phone calls today
-working on more self-marketing online materials
-my eyeglasses
-attractive guys
-mom cat sitting on my lap this afternoon and my ferals all hanging out with me when i came by today
-smiling
-having high cheekbones
-blankets
-incense
-being mature
-rest
-having beautiful hair
-stretches
-doing some dumbbell work
-candy
-the vegan burger i had for dinner
-blue skies
-my phone
-beauty
-intelligence
-my hazelnut vegan latte i had this morning
-sweets
-getting a new bag of coffee
-valentines day themes
-having tiny arms
-beautiful pictures of me
-self reassurances
-support from others
-my charisma
-being optimistic
-going back to the spiritual side of things lately for answers and healings to all that's been going on lately
-my eyesight
-touch
-water
-having nice lips
-a possible social outing later this month or early next month that sounds fun
-hyaluronic acid
-being able to get ahold of m's husband and getting a ride to therapy this morning
-having beautiful eyes
-m being nice to me today
-the ibuprofen and that it worked to relieve a lot of pain now that i'm out of tramadol
-expression
-work being about to pick up in the next few days
-God taking care of me
-pronoia
-a check on the way
-seeing the good in others
-surrender

[buttercup]

-seeing someone about my court case today
-more clarity
-deciding to go on a texting detox and change my communication interactions with how i text people
-M's husband getting me a ridepass from uber with his phone and giving me the info so i can use it on mine
-starting to work again tommorow
-self appreciation
-my beauty
-ordering pizza tonight
-my strength
-utilizing my inner resources to heal, become more positive, and stay optimistic and strong during this difficult time and come out renewed and better
-having beautiful hair
-deciding to not wear my compression garment for the day today
-the ibuprofen working really well
-yoga pants
-my gucci t-shirt i wore today
-hyaluronic acid
-thinking about positive things and things that feel good
-having mercy and forgiveness and empathy in my heart
-becoming more grounded
-actually being able to sleep somewhat decent last night and catch up on some sleep
-coffee
-candy
-my eyesight
-going for a walk today
-healthy digestion
-having beautiful cheekbones
-my eyeglasses
-deciding to have more integrity and come back to myself more even if it's uncomfortable at first
-having healthy teeth
-support from others
-handling things instead of putting them off
-music
-love
-cuteness

[buttercup]

-clarity
-feeling a good amount better physically today, and a small amount better mentally
-headphones
-feeling my feelings and processing things
-realizing i like D a lot, and it's time to let J go. What he did that night was very messed up and abusive and even if i feel i can have empathy on his side, and forgiveness, he degraded me and abused me and bullied me and if he loved me and cared about me, he wouldn't have done that. I need to heal my guilt, learn from both his side and mine and let go.
-getting out of the house for a bit.
-cats
-happy memories i can think about
-being special to D and feeling that is true now
-fashion
-having back up meds i had forgotten about to get me through this unexpected difficult detoxing that came about and having my anxiety med prescription get cut with no warning or back up in place at al
-makeup
-validation
-inspiration
-my laptop
-getting things cleaned up a little bit
-goals to better myself
-sunshine
-blue skies
-my leopard print coat
-seeing my old desires having manifested. it's very cool
-listening to theta music and heart chakra music
-wanting to explore deeper into my self and work on making positive change in my life
-water
-others finding me attractive
-coffee
-my feminity
-smiling
-having a caring heart
-caring less about what others think
-my jobs and creative projects coming up

[buttercup]

-having gone to the e.r and feeling much better ever since.i slept 3 days straight after that and all the head noise is gone.
-getting back on my meds
-coffee
-M's husband for being there for me and bringing me to the e.r
-people that care about me
-D being there for me in october and december and the special moments we shared
-my goal of beating my texting addication
-m's husband getting me a new plant for my house
-cleaning the dining room finally
-feeling like everything will be fine
-being able to sleep again
-these dominos marbled cake brownie cookies
-getting caught up on the work i missed
-all being well with the landlord
-being easy on myself
-my blankets
-things to look forward to
-goals
-caution
-sunshine
-surrendering
-having nice lips
-being positive
-being open
-the color green
-being healthy again
-tools and resources to better myself and make my life better
-cuteness
-my laptop
-my strength
-calmness
-having work this weekend
-feeling like life might finally go back to normal now
-changing my mindset to a more positive one
-my desire to focus on my inner healing and inner power
-my beauty
-plants
-being a merciful person
-rest
-sleep
-blue skies
-trusting in God, and going with the flow

[buttercup]

-being normal again and healthy
-my meds
-sleep
-confessing my feelings to D
-my plant
-sending my dad a plant
-how tight D held me when we slept that night in december
-feeling my feelings
-hope
-faith
-sunshine
-becoming grounded and back to myself
-sleep
-sportsbras
-clothes fitting looser
-eating less
-the screenshots i have that provide some evidence of the blackmail J did to me
-my beauty
-my cheekbones
-healthy digestion
-lip injections
-booking air-fare for my next trip
-my dreams that came true
-coffee
-doing some reflective journal writing
-the internet
-beautiful life moments
-the whole foods gift cards i have now since i accidentally used my card to pay for product
-beauty
-inspiration
-newness
-entertainment
-smiling
-help from others
-nonconformity
-water
-laughing
-having great taste
-makeup
-cleaning and organizing
-great skincare treatments and procedures
-spirituality
-prayer
-my crown chakra spray
-colors
-trees
-stretches
-blankets
-comfort
-blue skies
-being smart
-my creativity
-my hair
-being a nice person

[newfreedom]

• My Life
• -my plant
• -sunshine
• -clothes fitting looser
• -healthy digestion
• -coffee
• -the internet
• -entertainment
• -help from others
• -water
• -cleaning and organizing
• -spirituality
• -colours
• -trees
• -blankets
• -blue skies
• my hair

[buttercup]

-feeling calmer and more confident about court case
-protein bars
-having a legal advocate
-coffee
-french toast
-m's friend D coming with M's husband to support me at court
-my beauty
-getting a mysterious poem in a text message from what looks to be a dummy phone number that seems to come from someone who knows me very very well
-clothes getting looser
-my beautiful lips
-my upcoming project next week
-being able to sleep
-plants
-new shampoo and conditioner
-towels
-my intellect
-laughing at life
-sunshine
-my meds
-goals
-ideas
-my determination
-my sophistication