In last night dreams I am back to the doctors dreams...In this dream I am in a laborotory of somekind....I have a friend with me and she is very upset about the hars treatment they give me and do not at all listen to me and my friend do see that I am getting wors and wors...so she tells me to tell the doctor that it is too hars the treatment...the doctor listens and asks me to stand up...and (it is difficult for me to tell if the doctor is a male or female so I just say doctor) the doctor assistent gives me my spectacles and the doctor tell me to be very causes of my eyes because they do not have any eye doctor..and I feel that they only take care of the physical wellbeing....the doctor hold me up from my waist with his arm...and he starts to run and offcourse I crumble after few steps and I start to cry loudly....it is so hard for me to continue to be in the dream so I wake up myself.....(this dream are refering to the 6 months blackout what I have in my life from the big beating of me and my son in the 1980-81) ...I am a bit afraid to see how bad it was....but I believe it is unavoidable as I always want to know the truth....