GRATITUDE LIST

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-drinking water
-my miami trip
-anxiety medications
-cats
-doing positive things
-sleep
-inspiration
-having crazy fun adventures
-newness
-getting drinks, smoking weed, talking and getting along well, getting drunk and sleeping with the photographer from my shoot in miami
-acceptance
-surrender
-telling d some last words
-travel
-having blonde hair
-realizing i have to not let overwhelment consume me
-the pool at my favorite hotel from my last trip
-fashion
-my style
-having beautiful eyes
-growing as a person
-doing fun things
-making a new audio recording affirmation hynosis while in miami
-hot guys
-doing laundry
-helpful people
-blankets
-pillows
-colors
-art
-stretches
-learning
-air conditioning
-cleaning
-hyaluronic acid
-cosmetic procedures
-mobile editing apps
-focusing on my wellness
-trying to get my career back
-moisturizers
-showering
-realizing i've been too hard on myself and im not as bad as i think i am
-being a kind person

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-kittens
-cuteness
-improving my patience
-improving my calmness
-proving im right
-cleaning
-vacuuming
-spending time outside with J cat
-J cat coming back
-drinking water
-goals
-nightskies
-trying to have more body confidence
-all the job opportunities
-how much the tiny kitten likes me
-the kittens sleeping with me
-being a humane person
-fun
-sunrises
-beautiful surprises
-my medications
-my heart's desires
-letting go
-beautiful song lyrics
-chargers
-trees
-handwashing some clothes
-blankets
-pillows
-skipping dinner today
-beauty
-having beautiful eyes
-looking way younger then my age

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-google
-not eating all day
-drinking water
-my new victoria's secret leopard print push up bra
-asking for help
-music
-my beauty
-photo editing apps
-finding a place i approve of for J cat
-discovering new things
-healing
-cleaning products
-taking better care of my oral health
-cat cuddles
-being honest with myself
-sleep
-having a kind heart
-arm stretches
-art
-my heart's desires
-knowing when to take it easy
-nightskies
-new social media content
-trying to do more intention manifesting
-prayer
-purging my feelings out to D
-seeing the tiny kitten's fur grow and that he's going to have some white on his back, like a white stripe
-beautiful lyrics
-composing another legal document
-being smart
-connection
-hot guys
-having beautiful eyes
-my cactus water toner
-cuteness
-getting good news from hud in the mail
-seeing more working in my favor then i realize
-deep cleaning the living room and apartment
-feminine hygiene products
-lint rollers
-decluttering
-starbucks
-goals
-having a lot of work this weekend
-trying
-entertainment
-learning

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-going 24 hours without eating yesterday
-starbucks
-drinking water
-being productive
-pulling up to my house today then seeing D and his new girl's car and refusing to get out so they would have to go in first, waiting like nothing, then sure enough 3 minutes later, they pulled out and just drove off. loving the power!
-decluttering and cleaning the living room and going through over 6 months of mail and discarding it. feeling the renewed mental clarity from that already
-my electric toothbrush
-cute little gifts animal charities sometimes send me
-naps
-pillows
-blankets
-making an effort
-finishing job stuff today
-m's husband
-finding a cute watermelon cake that works as a fourth of july cake and birthday cake at the grocery store
-ibuprofen
-having nice lips
-seeing the kitten's grow and the tinier kitten's fur starting to show more white
-being smart
-air conditioning
-goals
-believing in myself
-hyaluronic acid
-physical exercise
-feeling my feelings
-sunshine

[buttercup]

-my kittens
-doing a good job getting this house cleaned and being about 60-70% done.
-liquor infused chocolates
-fasting
-hot guys
-drinking more water
-my beautiful birthday flowers
-my beauty
-my appetite shrinking
-having a few bites of my watermelon decorated cake and sharing a few tiny bites with the kittens since they were begging for it
-finding a new living room carpet i like for my living room and ordering it
-sleep
-redeeming a $50 botox deal i seen into my account
-blankets
-air conditioning
-M sending me my pictures
-people who area actually nice
-being smart
-my creativity
-the concept of romantic love, romantic lyrics, and sweet things
-calmness
-feeling my feelings
-forgiveness
-wanting to grow
-my goals
-fashion
-decluttering
-moisturizers
-cuteness

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-sweets
-my starbucks drink
-sunshine
-warmth
-kind people
-genuine people
-not being sick anymore
-meditation
-innovation
-wanting to find my green heart D crystal and not being able to and after having a great meditation where i felt really ok without him, finding it right next to my couch. Then him home that same night after wondering where he had been. 2 nights prior i was moving my couch upside down trying to find that crystal
-surrender
-serendipity
-my pic from M shoot in M being chosen and how great they are
-getting approved for the erap rental assistance
-having my hud interview tomorrow
-facing my landlords that day recently and it going ok
-seeing i'm moving more naturally just by working more
-physical exercise
-finishing my book on surrender
-having a golf outing job this week
-my kittens
-drinking more water
-being a helpful person
-having beautiful eyes
-my hair
-getting rid of stuff in my apartment
-evolving into a new person
-goals
-being productive
-doing some reading
-learning
-doing a W cat search today
-taking care of my oral health
-having an appt for P kitten made
-seeing my kittens grow
-apple cider vinegar
-rest
-compliments
-being smart
-my talents and accomplishments
-the breeze
-peaceful sounds
-face rolling

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-delicious vegan food
-booking my tix for my next miami trip
-drinking more water
-realizing i need to relax and let go
-going for a 3 mile walk
-b cat motivating me to get up
-showering
-using my favorite deep conditioner on my hair
-smiling
-sunshine
-focusing on my health
-cuteness
-blankets
-not having allergies
-adding a crystal to my cat's water

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-models
-the modeling industry
-possibly another job in first industry i worked in
-smashing the idiotic bizarre letter i opened last night and canceling work to get a restraining order and getting it granted and this time deciding i'm not going to be wavered out of it
-kittens
-my kittens doing so well being home today while i was out
-one person wanting to cry and another give me a hug after two instances of them hearing what i've been going through
-sleep
-sunshine
-walking
-changing the filter in the air purifier
-forgiveness
-fashion
-blankets
-drinking more water
-trying to take better care of myself
-my botox holding up better then i thought
-my creativity
-being smart
-aesthetically pleasing things
-liquor infused chocolates
-coffee
-peanut butter cookie dough
-being nice
-being considered attractive
-being goal driven
-having beautiful eyes
-growing as a person
-ideas
-my lower body getting more toned
-physical exercise
-stretches
-cleaning
-makeup
-photoshop and retouching
-my pants fitting loose

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-calming down about another distressing thing
-talking to m's husband on the phone today
-spending time with my dad today
-being smart
-my beauty
-my kittens
-trying to drink more water
-mobile editing apps
-looking very young
-showering
-maintenance coming and all going well
-nightskies
-my starbucks drink and chocolate croissant i had today
-wearing my new burberry scrunchie today
-compliments
-physical exercise
-meditating today
-getting a new book in the mail today to read that's outside my usual genre
-watching a good mystery movie last night
-sleep
-feeling calmer and more grounded
-learning
-feeling like my chakras are opening
-makeup
-cleaning
-having great cheekbones
-having beautiful eyes
-seeing famous beautiful people's flaws and feeling better about mine
-entertainment
-botox
-blankets
-socks
-clean clothes
-fashion
-being productive
-being helpful
-being kind
-peaceful sounds
-newness
-pictures
-flowers
-plants
-moisturizers
-taking better care of my oral health
-baby wipes

[buttercup]

-my kittens
-healthy digestion
-sweet beverages
-working today
-staying calm
-having feelings for M
-next miami trip booked
-P kitten gaining healthy weight and his fur getting smoother and thicker
-being approved for rental assistance
-M texting me on his own today
-moisturizers
-starbucks
-pillows
-being told i have a little p
-B kitten being happy with his new toy i got him today
-having blonde hair
-eviction moratorium extending
-M's husband healing
-my dad getting a new job
-naps
-getting a new a.c installed
-fashion
-going to yoga class the other night
-focusing on my wellness
-nightskies
-yoga
-my lower body getting tighter
-looking at things and being intrigued at how some things play out
-music
-entertainment
-cat cuddles
-getting a porch cat tent for l cat
-love
-having more money then i thought today
-seeing my first syringe of kybella did make a difference,and did make my chin thinner
-decluttering
-being smart
-cleaning
-becoming more grounded
-my new antidepressant
-meditation
-showering
-water
-healing
-beauty
-feminine energy
-having a sweetness to me
-socks
-fun
-feel good passion
-having beautiful eyes
-having a skincare regimen
-makeup
-connections and bonding
-people who help animals